HAPPY BIRTHDAY AIMEE!!!!!!!!!
in mr. kaplans room again, sitting back here while first year music theory is learning all of their rhythms and shit. i remember doing that stuff last year. white girl has NO rhythm. and i love aimee b.
some recently recieved emails have gotten me to thinking about change. mostly how some people can change so much so quickly that you blink and they are gone. From one email to the next you can watch their progression into someone you don't know, and all you can do is sit and hope that they are changing into someone you can like. its inevitable, i guess, to see people change. I know im changing too, but i can't see it-- im too close to myself to see my own change, it comes in waves of realization that i am a different person from the one you all knew a month ago. I think I like the person i am becoming. I am a firm believer that change is a good thing, as long as the change is a progression to better things, and not a digression. forward movement. but what qualifies as better? what makes my values and choices, my life now better than what i used to be? who decides? it should be a completely personal decision for every person. it shouldnt matter whether other people think your change is good change in order for it to satisfy you. But i am selfish, i want change to be change that works for me, and anything else is just not okay. Aimee just made a good point. she said this all started because of an email. i wouldnt be thinking about change if i was happy with it. certain things just don't seem right. some people are changing too quickly for me to keep up, im afraid i wont know them at all soon. its a shame, i thought i had something good. i did.
the bell rang.
some recently recieved emails have gotten me to thinking about change. mostly how some people can change so much so quickly that you blink and they are gone. From one email to the next you can watch their progression into someone you don't know, and all you can do is sit and hope that they are changing into someone you can like. its inevitable, i guess, to see people change. I know im changing too, but i can't see it-- im too close to myself to see my own change, it comes in waves of realization that i am a different person from the one you all knew a month ago. I think I like the person i am becoming. I am a firm believer that change is a good thing, as long as the change is a progression to better things, and not a digression. forward movement. but what qualifies as better? what makes my values and choices, my life now better than what i used to be? who decides? it should be a completely personal decision for every person. it shouldnt matter whether other people think your change is good change in order for it to satisfy you. But i am selfish, i want change to be change that works for me, and anything else is just not okay. Aimee just made a good point. she said this all started because of an email. i wouldnt be thinking about change if i was happy with it. certain things just don't seem right. some people are changing too quickly for me to keep up, im afraid i wont know them at all soon. its a shame, i thought i had something good. i did.
the bell rang.