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it's 2 am. i always find myself writing livejournal entries late at night after i had been sleeping, and i was woken up. i probably won't remember this in the morning and i'll think "hmm, did i really write that?" hah.
there's a mouse in my wall and i hear it scratching and it's really annoying, but i think of what crystal said about mice, "they're just trying to get by... like us." then i feel bad for the poor little guy. he's so cute and tiny, but i'm so afraid of him! haha. why?!
i hate how i always take things the wrong way. i can misinterpret a simple conversation about the past into something so ridiculous it doesn't even make sense. i have to live in the here and now. not the past. the past should not affect me, or bother me. i read a quote somewhere that said, "don't think about the people in your past because there is a reason they're not in your future" there are things about my past that i don't like to talk about, and things in other peoples past that i don't want to hear about. some things are better left unsaid.
i hate how i let such small things get to me so much. "Don't sweat the small stuff" i should read that book again. i hate how my two best friends never call me anymore. i hate being sad for no reason. i hate being up right now and having no one to talk to. i hate when people change facts in a story. i hate when people call me mean names. i hate when people are mean in general. i hate how i'm not doing that great in school. i hate how my throat hurts. i hate how i can't sleep. i hate how i look forward to watching tv every day - like its the most exciting thing ever. i hate letting a day pass by where i do nothing productive (like today). i hate noises mice make in the walls. i hate feeling so alone.
i'm so full of hate today, i'm just angry.
i don't want to be angry. i just want to fall asleep and have this all blow over.
and wake up happy in the morning. and feeling good and positive about my life.
i think i've just been in my house for way too long and i've been thinking way too much.
i love how much my entries fluctuate so much, happy sad happy sad.
c'est la vie.
tomorrow is another day. hopefully its better than today.
there's a mouse in my wall and i hear it scratching and it's really annoying, but i think of what crystal said about mice, "they're just trying to get by... like us." then i feel bad for the poor little guy. he's so cute and tiny, but i'm so afraid of him! haha. why?!
i hate how i always take things the wrong way. i can misinterpret a simple conversation about the past into something so ridiculous it doesn't even make sense. i have to live in the here and now. not the past. the past should not affect me, or bother me. i read a quote somewhere that said, "don't think about the people in your past because there is a reason they're not in your future" there are things about my past that i don't like to talk about, and things in other peoples past that i don't want to hear about. some things are better left unsaid.
i hate how i let such small things get to me so much. "Don't sweat the small stuff" i should read that book again. i hate how my two best friends never call me anymore. i hate being sad for no reason. i hate being up right now and having no one to talk to. i hate when people change facts in a story. i hate when people call me mean names. i hate when people are mean in general. i hate how i'm not doing that great in school. i hate how my throat hurts. i hate how i can't sleep. i hate how i look forward to watching tv every day - like its the most exciting thing ever. i hate letting a day pass by where i do nothing productive (like today). i hate noises mice make in the walls. i hate feeling so alone.
i'm so full of hate today, i'm just angry.
i don't want to be angry. i just want to fall asleep and have this all blow over.
and wake up happy in the morning. and feeling good and positive about my life.
i think i've just been in my house for way too long and i've been thinking way too much.
i love how much my entries fluctuate so much, happy sad happy sad.
c'est la vie.
tomorrow is another day. hopefully its better than today.