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i ate an english muffin and salad and fish and soup and some yogurt today....
i am trying to recover, for real. max is making me see a doctor about my lack of menstruation and the purging.
my entire body aches, even my heart. and yet all i want to do is get this soup out of me.
it's fucked up.
but i am trying.
and i refuse to post any more calorie counts on here because (a) i shouldn't count them [ha!] and (b) i don't want to be an "inspiration". i've received several e-mails from girls telling me that i am a model for their eating patterns.
and i don't want to wish that hell on anyone.
so if i count calories, i count them on fitday goddamnit.
i am trying to recover, for real. max is making me see a doctor about my lack of menstruation and the purging.
my entire body aches, even my heart. and yet all i want to do is get this soup out of me.
it's fucked up.
but i am trying.
and i refuse to post any more calorie counts on here because (a) i shouldn't count them [ha!] and (b) i don't want to be an "inspiration". i've received several e-mails from girls telling me that i am a model for their eating patterns.
and i don't want to wish that hell on anyone.
so if i count calories, i count them on fitday goddamnit.