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[starvation]

was this a night of growth, maturity
humming frictionless along the earth
forgiveness and acceptance
no.
I locked the windows, and closed the blinds
and nursed my rejection
sucked on it like a jawbreaker
til my lips were wet
and I felt it rip at my guts like a canker
and as the pain intensified
I felt my muscles slacken
peace settled on me
beautiful
no matter how brief