JUST INCASE
Just Incase
We all need to face a certain fact. We all have a time where we pass on to an afterlife wether you believe it's reincarnation, heaven, etc. So I am writing this to leave everybody that loves me or cares for me something to always remember.
I realize the past 5 or 6 years I have had a hard time finding peace in my life. However, everyday I find more and more beauty in the world. but there are things in my life...that i can only smile about now.
I will always remember the crazy spontaneous moments I've spent with my best friend....whether it be flashing the car behind us or calling a random house from a gated community to use their bathroom...just for fun.
I will always remember my first love. Who he was, what we did, and what we experienced together. It was hard somtimes, exciting, and even sad....but I would have never changed a thing.
I will always remember the other people I have encountered in my life that have actually (on occasion) surprised me. Sometimes the most unexpected people in the world can make the day seem brighter, just by putting their arms around me and showing me that they cared.
I will always remember my birthdays. Crystal palace. And my family dinners to a favorite restaurant with the dirt cups that tony roma's will give you for dessert.
I will always remember the first time I got drunk. I made a stupid mistake within that time, but it's just another experience....i will never forget.
I will always be thankful for late night dinner's with my mom. Seeing her eyes close from being so tired, but still glad that I have that extra hour, just to talk with her.
I will always remember when my sister got busted after a big party while my family went on vacation. That was probably one of the worst days of her life.
And, even though I grit my teeth, I will never forget that one man that I could not stand,...the one that made me want to disappear and hide under a rock. My father. I have his traits, his cheaks, and his sarcasm. People seem to love it, so maybe he's not such a bad guy on a good day. :-D
I will always remember both sides of my family..the one's i haven't listed. They kill me sometimes...literally.
I will always remember the one that (even though i never told him) made me feel beautiful. He would turn me around to see my reflection and he would tell me to say "i am beautiful." the words brought me to tears, but his calming gaze into my eyes always made me feel like there is something beautiful about me.
I am who i am because everyday teaches me a new lesson, or gives me a new experience to remember...and even sometimes regret it. I hope the world will remember me because all i want to do is help people. I could die tomorrow, or i could die 50 years from now, so I leave this for everybody. There is so much beauty in the world, so please....I ask one favor from anyone that loves me or cares for me; don't hold back. Say what you gotta say, do what you gotta do, and go out with a bang while at it. If you pretended everyday was your last day, you could make your life great by taking a chance.
We all need to face a certain fact. We all have a time where we pass on to an afterlife wether you believe it's reincarnation, heaven, etc. So I am writing this to leave everybody that loves me or cares for me something to always remember.
I realize the past 5 or 6 years I have had a hard time finding peace in my life. However, everyday I find more and more beauty in the world. but there are things in my life...that i can only smile about now.
I will always remember the crazy spontaneous moments I've spent with my best friend....whether it be flashing the car behind us or calling a random house from a gated community to use their bathroom...just for fun.
I will always remember my first love. Who he was, what we did, and what we experienced together. It was hard somtimes, exciting, and even sad....but I would have never changed a thing.
I will always remember the other people I have encountered in my life that have actually (on occasion) surprised me. Sometimes the most unexpected people in the world can make the day seem brighter, just by putting their arms around me and showing me that they cared.
I will always remember my birthdays. Crystal palace. And my family dinners to a favorite restaurant with the dirt cups that tony roma's will give you for dessert.
I will always remember the first time I got drunk. I made a stupid mistake within that time, but it's just another experience....i will never forget.
I will always be thankful for late night dinner's with my mom. Seeing her eyes close from being so tired, but still glad that I have that extra hour, just to talk with her.
I will always remember when my sister got busted after a big party while my family went on vacation. That was probably one of the worst days of her life.
And, even though I grit my teeth, I will never forget that one man that I could not stand,...the one that made me want to disappear and hide under a rock. My father. I have his traits, his cheaks, and his sarcasm. People seem to love it, so maybe he's not such a bad guy on a good day. :-D
I will always remember both sides of my family..the one's i haven't listed. They kill me sometimes...literally.
I will always remember the one that (even though i never told him) made me feel beautiful. He would turn me around to see my reflection and he would tell me to say "i am beautiful." the words brought me to tears, but his calming gaze into my eyes always made me feel like there is something beautiful about me.
I am who i am because everyday teaches me a new lesson, or gives me a new experience to remember...and even sometimes regret it. I hope the world will remember me because all i want to do is help people. I could die tomorrow, or i could die 50 years from now, so I leave this for everybody. There is so much beauty in the world, so please....I ask one favor from anyone that loves me or cares for me; don't hold back. Say what you gotta say, do what you gotta do, and go out with a bang while at it. If you pretended everyday was your last day, you could make your life great by taking a chance.