the end....for now
I'm mad.
I'm mad that i feel for someone that was taken.
I'm mad that i thought it was going to be different.
I'm mad that i saw this coming, new the outcome, but tried anywaz.
I'm mad that i took that risk.
I'm mad that i let him kiss me.
I'm mad that the kiss ment the world to me.
I'm mad that after everything that was said, felt, and done,.....nothing changes.
So there you have it. After a certain amount of time i start to believe the only thing i can do now is just...move on. No coulda, shoulda, woulda....just put the period on the end of the sentence and forget. but as nice as that sounds....we all know, that's just not me. I'm pissed, that after everything so far, nothing has changed....and seems to me like nothing will. I'm not psychic, and i don't pretend to be, but i've been in this exact situation before.
"i like cute boy, cute boy likes me. Cute boy knows that since he's taken he should keep his distance, but that doesn't last too long before temptation rolls around and gives you a big slap in the face for not making the move sooner,....so cute boy goes in for the kill. but no matter what, cute boy is taken. the end right? i guess they are just thoughts. random thoughts that will go away eventually."
so since i was right about EVERYTHING so far. what would happen.....what will happen. i'll finish off the story before i even get to experience it first hand.
"after a while cute boy loses interest in his temporary lust for another girl. he continues to date the same chick for quite some time after. but the moral is.....it was all temporary. the girl is pretty mad that this is how it ends,....because for once.....she just wished that she mattered enough to a significant other for him to take a BIG leap....."
i hate the ending. i hated the middle of it too. For a second i really did think it was my turn. but i guess not. eventually i'll have that mentality to say "no biggy" but right now i'm going to let it bother me for just a bit longer....because i feel so F'd in the A about everything.
i deserve/deserved something good. this isn't bad karma i have....just bad luck.
I'm mad that i feel for someone that was taken.
I'm mad that i thought it was going to be different.
I'm mad that i saw this coming, new the outcome, but tried anywaz.
I'm mad that i took that risk.
I'm mad that i let him kiss me.
I'm mad that the kiss ment the world to me.
I'm mad that after everything that was said, felt, and done,.....nothing changes.
So there you have it. After a certain amount of time i start to believe the only thing i can do now is just...move on. No coulda, shoulda, woulda....just put the period on the end of the sentence and forget. but as nice as that sounds....we all know, that's just not me. I'm pissed, that after everything so far, nothing has changed....and seems to me like nothing will. I'm not psychic, and i don't pretend to be, but i've been in this exact situation before.
"i like cute boy, cute boy likes me. Cute boy knows that since he's taken he should keep his distance, but that doesn't last too long before temptation rolls around and gives you a big slap in the face for not making the move sooner,....so cute boy goes in for the kill. but no matter what, cute boy is taken. the end right? i guess they are just thoughts. random thoughts that will go away eventually."
so since i was right about EVERYTHING so far. what would happen.....what will happen. i'll finish off the story before i even get to experience it first hand.
"after a while cute boy loses interest in his temporary lust for another girl. he continues to date the same chick for quite some time after. but the moral is.....it was all temporary. the girl is pretty mad that this is how it ends,....because for once.....she just wished that she mattered enough to a significant other for him to take a BIG leap....."
i hate the ending. i hated the middle of it too. For a second i really did think it was my turn. but i guess not. eventually i'll have that mentality to say "no biggy" but right now i'm going to let it bother me for just a bit longer....because i feel so F'd in the A about everything.
i deserve/deserved something good. this isn't bad karma i have....just bad luck.