thoughts on love's mishaps, part 3.
Me: mom put things into perspective last night when she said all the guys i'm interested in already have girlfriends. and she's right. it's not that no one interests me, they're just in relationships
Dan: it's your infinite striving to better yourself
you target what you can't have
maybe?
Me: well. if i see a great quality in someone else that i know i should have or work on, i see that as being attainable...so i'm not sure if that's why, as those people are unattainable
i mean, it could be a jealousy of their happiness ha
Dan: ironic to be jealous of something you can have with someone else
you want it, yet you don’t
Elyse: exactly
who wants the good AND the bad? just gimmie the good haha
Dan: i hear you on that one
Elyse: i feel like i'm at a pretty awesome place in my life right now though. i do think i could give a relationship the attention and nurturing that it deserves, whereas in the past, i really couldn't do that
i was trying to figure my life out, and i finally feel stable
Dan: yeah
i sucked when we dated, i won't lie
i wouldn't drive to go see you
want to know why?
Me: because i intimidated you?
Dan: no
Me: that seems to be the answer to everything with me and guys haha
Dan: i was literally scared to drive on the parkway
not even kidding
that was the one and only reason
Me: haha it wasn't a big deal. i didn't mind driving down. and i think we dated for a whopping 2 weeks or something. after 6 months? yeah i'd probably say dan, meet parkway.
Dan: hahahaha
Me: funny story though
every year at ramapo, they would have a psychic night. i don't know where they found these people, but they were ridiculously good. like i wouldn't say anything about myself or my life, and they would tell me exactly what was going on.
Dan: weird
Me: every year, it was someone different and they'd ask what i wanted to know. i would always bring up my lack of love life, of course, and every year, every person said "it's not time for you" and i was like wtf when will it be? and they were just like not now. haha it was so frustrating but true
Dan: hahah
Me: what i can say though, on a positive note, is that i did meet people i cared about in college. and in spending time with them, i learned what i want/need and what i am capable of giving. i know it will help in the future. i saw the good and bad in people, and myself.
Dan: it's your infinite striving to better yourself
you target what you can't have
maybe?
Me: well. if i see a great quality in someone else that i know i should have or work on, i see that as being attainable...so i'm not sure if that's why, as those people are unattainable
i mean, it could be a jealousy of their happiness ha
Dan: ironic to be jealous of something you can have with someone else
you want it, yet you don’t
Elyse: exactly
who wants the good AND the bad? just gimmie the good haha
Dan: i hear you on that one
Elyse: i feel like i'm at a pretty awesome place in my life right now though. i do think i could give a relationship the attention and nurturing that it deserves, whereas in the past, i really couldn't do that
i was trying to figure my life out, and i finally feel stable
Dan: yeah
i sucked when we dated, i won't lie
i wouldn't drive to go see you
want to know why?
Me: because i intimidated you?
Dan: no
Me: that seems to be the answer to everything with me and guys haha
Dan: i was literally scared to drive on the parkway
not even kidding
that was the one and only reason
Me: haha it wasn't a big deal. i didn't mind driving down. and i think we dated for a whopping 2 weeks or something. after 6 months? yeah i'd probably say dan, meet parkway.
Dan: hahahaha
Me: funny story though
every year at ramapo, they would have a psychic night. i don't know where they found these people, but they were ridiculously good. like i wouldn't say anything about myself or my life, and they would tell me exactly what was going on.
Dan: weird
Me: every year, it was someone different and they'd ask what i wanted to know. i would always bring up my lack of love life, of course, and every year, every person said "it's not time for you" and i was like wtf when will it be? and they were just like not now. haha it was so frustrating but true
Dan: hahah
Me: what i can say though, on a positive note, is that i did meet people i cared about in college. and in spending time with them, i learned what i want/need and what i am capable of giving. i know it will help in the future. i saw the good and bad in people, and myself.