THe LiGHTS ARe oFF & iM LoST AGAiN.
7:59..and its still snowing. i hate tonight and all the snow can just bury me alive for all i care. i put myself on invisable because i really feel it right now. and im so pathetic to the point that its ridiculous. maybe i should shut every feeling i have off and just put them away and never ever think about them ever again cause right now, i feel like i don't have anything to hold onto. and i hate thinking about things over and over cause its getting me nowhere and i keep thinking of ways of making it better but i don't think i can. but for the record i just looked at your name on the screen for the 48329432th time and wondered what you could possibly be thinking about at a time like this. i want to go outside and sit and let the snow hit my tongue and eye lashes and listen to the way it hits the ground. its dead quiet outside and noisey as hell in here. i dont want to be alone but for some reason, outside in the cold and silence is where i'd like to be.