i'M DROWNiNG iN MY SLEEP.

[starsxdied]

Yeah.. so it's been a loooooong time since I updated this shit. My apologies. Anyways, not a whole lot has happened since I last updated. School has been so slow and surprisingly I've been doing really good. Math on the other hand blows but I have to work harder I suppose. Hm. Last night, I had Brandon, Kelsey and Bryan over. I'm happy we are officially together. He's awesome :] and I'll add amazingly good looking too. Anyways, theres a lot that I'm going to do different this time cause I really want things to work. Hm.. Dare I Say show-last night. Bummer. I really wanted to see them. It was their LAST SHOW! Sad. Albert React I think is coming up.. yeah, I think. I wanna go see them. I need to go shopping. Arrgh. I talked to my mom about how I've been feeling ignored around the house. She said that things will get better and that she had noticed that I had been feeling that way. It hasn't changed. My dad has been on my bad side lately too. I love it how he thinks he knows everything about me and he doesn't. We never talk. If we do talk.. it'd be a mirracle if we didn't argue. I can't talk to him about anything. The only way he thinks he can be a parent to me, is by telling me everything I do wrong and that just pushes me over the edge even more. I haven't talked to him all day and he comes home and I ask my mom if I can go out or something and he goes "I think you should stay home tonight, Laura." Yeah so tell me what the point of that is. He's just going to sit downstairs and not talk to any of us. I feel like hes just rooming with us sometimes. He's never there. I'm done venting for now. I've just been feeling blah lately and I don't mean to and I wish it'd go away. I want to see Bryan.

I'm going to go and I'll try to update more frequently.

<3, me.