it is finally starting to sink in...

[starsinhereyez]

I feel a strange calmness within myself today. It feels like my world has been continuely turned upside down as of late, partially of my own choosing and partially because of the actions and decisions of others. But today... today has been okay

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[nightingale13]

*tear* I was wondering where Courtney went. That seemed a lot more like you. Jackie wont say it, but she still cares.

[starsinhereyez]

thank you dear. sorry i have been so...well gone, i have just been trying to figure things out for myself.

we still need to do coffee.

i am glad to hear jackie still cares, even if she does not want to admit it.

i do care, a lot, but i am okay with the actions i have taken, and the way things are...

like i said, it is becoming easier, and i know it is for the best.

<3

[jackraven]

I do still care. And I would not mind seeing you a time before you go to philly. I want a hug.

[starsinhereyez]

jackie, i would really enjoy seeing you, and in fact would love a hug.

not playing a victim role, but it has been hard having you cut me out entirly without even talking to me about anything.

i understand that you are going on what everyone is saying etc...but it has been hard to have someone who i claim as a best friend just up and disown you.

i am glad to still hear you care, and i hope you as well could be civil and happy for me, and allow yourself to perhaps be a friend to me, and just know that my intents with any of this were never of the harsh or evil/bitchy person whatsoever.

i hope you know that. i hope you ALL know that.

<3

[jackraven]

Well I work everyday till 5pm, and have the weekends off, and if I am not at home you know where I am at. So ball is in your court.