What I always wanted.
That one moment, it felt like dancing through hard-falling rain that beat the concrete fierce as a heartbeat. It felt like forgiveness. I stood out there barefoot on the wet grass, feeling almost naked, but knowing I was strong.
I wish that more people would be unafraid. I was thinking about things today, and it seems that a lot of people are scared of things that if they actually let t hem in, those things could change their lives and make their world beautiful. A lot of people seem to be afraid of love. Sadly, I think many of the men of my past most likely were. All I want is someone who would let me love him and be unafraid. Someone who would let me give my world to him, and in turn be my everything. Random hookups tend to dissapoint, and as said in Romeo and Juliet these violent delights have their violent ends. It reminds me of how when I was in the forest with Shane, sharing something I thought was beautiful, I asked him why he liked me and the first thing he said was "because you're pretty." I had only known him for about 6 hours and I went into too much that one day. I was willing to commit to him, to be loyal and be everything he wanted, but he broke up with me a few weeks later. When things start quickly, they tend to end quickly too. So now, I'm being careful. I want a man who has courage enough to love, but just vulnerable to admit his weaknesses, small enough to be able to have have hands that fit in mine, and big enough that when he kneels he reaches the heavens. Someone who would know how true my heart is. I know this guy is out there somewhere, and I wait patiently, but sometimes the anticipation gets difficult.
On the other hand though, I am excited for anything that could happen. Life is infinitely beautiful for how surprising its blessings can be.
I wish that more people would be unafraid. I was thinking about things today, and it seems that a lot of people are scared of things that if they actually let t hem in, those things could change their lives and make their world beautiful. A lot of people seem to be afraid of love. Sadly, I think many of the men of my past most likely were. All I want is someone who would let me love him and be unafraid. Someone who would let me give my world to him, and in turn be my everything. Random hookups tend to dissapoint, and as said in Romeo and Juliet these violent delights have their violent ends. It reminds me of how when I was in the forest with Shane, sharing something I thought was beautiful, I asked him why he liked me and the first thing he said was "because you're pretty." I had only known him for about 6 hours and I went into too much that one day. I was willing to commit to him, to be loyal and be everything he wanted, but he broke up with me a few weeks later. When things start quickly, they tend to end quickly too. So now, I'm being careful. I want a man who has courage enough to love, but just vulnerable to admit his weaknesses, small enough to be able to have have hands that fit in mine, and big enough that when he kneels he reaches the heavens. Someone who would know how true my heart is. I know this guy is out there somewhere, and I wait patiently, but sometimes the anticipation gets difficult.
On the other hand though, I am excited for anything that could happen. Life is infinitely beautiful for how surprising its blessings can be.