im so ready to get out of stupid high school with its stupid people

part of me is scared that ill fail in college and wont be able to do it. but then i figure, if everyone else can, why not me?

its finally spring and the smell of fresh flowers sends me reeling.

its been so long since i posted an entry. im done with work until sept. and im gonna enjoy evry fucking minute of it! this summer has been good although i cant even remember half of the things i did. probably cuz i didnt the same thing every night. people are starting to leave for college and its so sad! but at the same time, i wish i were leaving ( Read more... )

BIG NEWS! my parents have realized that i've done drugs....well only that i've smoked weed, not the full extent of it all. and i got the whole big lecture thing like 6 times but i dont think im in trouble. and its kind of a relief for them to finally know, although they're probably going to be watching me and my behavior now so i'm going to be more ( Read more... )

the physics regents are over!!!! they werent that bad. and its the first official day of summer! everything is done for school. no more junior shit to deal with. i'm ready for total relaxation and partying for the next 2 months. i really want to make this summer special and exciting. i want to go to peoples country houses and visit museums and buy ( Read more... )

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i had a great birthday. i really enjoyed eating indian food and just hanging out with my girls and taking pictures. i wish it was my birthday again today.

well its my last hours of 16. and oh what a year its been. had its ups and downs but things are good now. and i like them this way. im not really excited for 17. nothing great about 17. just another punk. i am excited however to spend the night with my girlfriends and boyfriend. and eat good food. i hope tomorrow is a sunny day.

the weather this weekend was absolutely amazing. a little chilly on 4/20 but it was so amazing. best 4/20 ever. and last night it was so warm and not windy and you could see the moon's reflection in the hudson river from harry's terrace. i actually felt like it was summer, except a little cool. and today was so warm. i wore shorts and flip flops! ( Read more... )

my dad wont let me do the revue. which sucks butt. but i kinda dont like the revue. but i feel like i havent been to rehearsals is years and i miss it so much. i was walking home today remembering how fun rehearsals were and how hyped up id get. he says i need to concentrate on the fucking SATs which, if i dont get over a 2100, ill die ( Read more... )

i just wrote 3 out of the minimum of 4 pages i have to write for my history paper, which lifts a load off my shoulders. i really want a birthday party but my dad isnt letting me have one cuz theyll be away. i jsut want to do something good, not ehh, although not extravagent. i wish i had my own house.