He's so cute...
Pauly is adorable...this past month has been total fun and a new beginning...for real this time...
I find myself fighting with emotions but it seems to becoming easier to let go of my anger and we hang out and giggle and laugh and kiss and just are with each other. Right now i am not worrying about trusting him as much as i will once he leaves my apartment. I know that he sleeps till 2 wakes up and i know he's not talking on the phone...the only minute mistrust i have is with the computer...i know that texting is also an option but the way he keeps apologizing and telling me he hasn't talked to her is believeable. the way he looks at me, his smile, his kiss and his singing are all back to normal and thank god b/c that is the man i love more than anything. i honestly think he has gauged the amount of hurt that he caused me and he really is sorry for what he did...especially as he sees how happy i am now. he keeps saying sorry, he keeps telling me things and he keeps i dunno it just seems right now. don't get me wrong i'm not 100% yet but i dont htink i should be either, its only been a month and 2 weeks ago he talked ot her and god only knows how many times he said i love you to her....not me. but i dunno i'll let that one go for now. i'm not sur ei'm ready for that step yet...i mean its obvious but no need for words right now. i mean she is still calling and texting and its obvious he had MAJOR feelings for her...whether those feelings were to the fullest genuine i am not sure...i think sometimes the pain he felt after we broke up he kinda took his feelings about me to her and then she was giving him the atention...but WHATEVER! it still bothers me that she is around!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and he wants a cookie for when she doens't call three days in a row and i personally think that is BS, a big dump truck of it. other than that things are marvelous and i am going to miss him when he leaves to go to school. he is adorable and i know he cares about me tons, i just tend to annoy him alittle and he annoys me too but hey we love each other we are there for each other and fighting is at a minimum unless it involves his ex...ah so cute he makes me smile...i sit at work and i'm giddy or i just smile...that's a good feeling