Mixed Emotions!
Holla! It's monday and i'm at work, surprise surprise....i'm starting to get stressed about school...the GRE, my honors project, and GAMMA PHI!!!! o no!! The balancing act is about to begin again and i have a lot to do in these last few weeks of summer! I gotta study for the GRE, i am working real hard on getting my honors project ready...i am surprisingly really happy with how it's going, i'm just really nervous about writing the intro with all the research papers...ARGH! gamma phi is gamma phi and i hate to think about how much time it's oging ot take up...ye si enjoy the activities, but my lord it's way too much responsibility and i am already pissed off at people...mental note: don't let paul know this. speaking of paul he's going to get frustrated come the beginning of school as well b/c i will be spending WAY TOO MUCH TIME with gamma phi and nathan is gone. I am going to feel awful b/c my time is limited and he always gets mad about scheduling...i feel awful but i dont know how to fix it and i see other people's b/f getting irked but uggh who knows!
Things wil paul have dramtically increased in positivity...long talks, less tension, more joking, more tlaking, relaxing, chillin, eating...sharing...NORMALITY what a concept!I'm quite excited about going to a cabin with just him and kelli, it's gonna be some nice time spent mending an important relationship between paul and kelli and me and paul will get some quality time..hopefully! all i have to say is that i'm happy, i'm positive and things are going well. but of course...the bitch is still contacting him and probably will for the rest of his life...SCREAM REALLY LOUD AND PUNCH REALLY HARD
this past weekend was a blast...minus a few incidents on saturday, but it was about other people and not any of my close crew. Friday me and pauly chilled, same as saturday...the day on saturday was so relaxing and then that night we drank had so much fun! we played games, ami rented a video cam so we got 20 minutes of pure drunkenness on tape...let me tell you it was a HOOT and i am a HUGE bitch...but a funny and VERY cute one :) Ther eis some funny things on there and my real emotions towards a certain person were revealed in a very wide eyed face hahahahaha o my...good times!
tonight me and amanda are going to get makeovers with mary kay...that should be fun! i'm excited!!!!
much love til another day