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i feel like crap today. i feel empty, sad and sick. why can't everyday be at least a little bit better for me? this is really getting old. i know i sound dumb but i don't know i just yeah. i want my boyfriend. it sucks that he would rather be alone. i'm feeling a little crazy today. well tonight, actually this morning. i could really use a cigarette too bad i don't have any left. thats basically my life in a nut shell. always wanting something that is already gone or what cant be had. its ridiculous rahh. punch me in the face. i want to feel something! this is way too depressing. hahahah. safwyhfgjdgjzdggjg deal with it. this is my journal to vent on and be sad on. no one reads it anyways. ha ha. i am going to read. books are amazing. and even though it is 2:22 in the fucking morning i am going to read and keep reading until i cant keep my damn eyes open anymore. fucking goodnight.