Missing

[starry_vision]

It's always hard when I come to my stepdad's and brother's house. When you walk in, there is a big picture of her over the fireplace. The picture caprtures her perfectly, she has that easy smile on her face, the sun behind her making her hair gleam. He has a picture of the two of them on the coffee table, a beautiful sterling silver frame

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[maldito]

How do I ease the pain of missing her? I know it's supposed to ease up as time goes by, but we are coming up on her 6 month anniversary, and things still feel the same as the first week. Things will never be normal, no matter how hard I try, and no matter how I try to push it out of my mind. A piece of my heart will forever be missing.

It's been 6 mos. already? Damn. As I've always said that we can always prepare for death but never for loss, this is true only b/c loss is something that has a profound effect. I could care less if people say that we end up learning to live w/ the loss of a loved one. Yeah, we learn to live w/ it, but that doesn't mean it becomes easier as time goes on.

Those that have passed on for me, including my pets, there are constant reminders of them. And I mean constant! Right after my dad died as I was riding around w/ my aunt, there were some family issues that came up. I caught myself many times saying that we should ask my dad, we should go see my dad b/c he would know. Yeah, except now, we can't do that b/c he's no longer there. There are so many things that you will do that will make you think of how it was w/ your mom, b/c she was a part of that process, or whatever just triggered that memory, whether it be something physical or not.

It's not going to be easy. I think it can be tolerable, but never easy or that it will ease up. And it won't be normal, whatever that is suppose to be. It'll be different b/c something (your mom) is no longer there.