Enjoying the roller coaster ride
There may be a celebration ahead...in the future, there may be a third date for me! Time will tell...last night I was ready to just throw in the towel about it...let me just tell you about this fellow.
His name is Neil, 29 from South Bend. I met him via OKCupid. He initiated conversation a few weeks ago, and we exchanged messages back and forth. Very cool guy! I left for Texas, and I thought I would have access to a computer, but found out we were doing a road trip across Texas, and I wasn't sure how often I would have access to a computer. So, I gave him my number, and said he could text me or call me whenever. About the second half of my trip, we started talking on the phone...most convos were at least two hours. I was liking who I was getting to know...he is just a really nice guy, down to earth, LOVES sports, and an all around sweetheart. I returned from Texas this past Monday, and we had our first date on Tuesday, a lunch date. We were there a little over an hour as I had class and he had to go back to work. He was about to get a promotion for his job, and he was telling me all sorts of stuff it could entail like traveling all over the country. I thought it was exciting and of course I was jealous because seriously, who wouldn't want to get paid to travel all over?! He walked me to my car, kissed me, and said he would see me tomorrow, our 2nd date.
The next night I met him and his friend at the Notre Dame Men's Basketball game. I made it at half time because I had to work. It was a really good time! Everything went fine, and Wednesday was the last night I would see him til what I thought was next week.
Yesterday was his first day in Chicago finding about his promotion. First mission, go to Phoenix next week to train, which meant cancelling our third date on Tuesday. I wasn't mad at all, I was more happy for him because he was thrilled. Then, fear kind of started to linger...deja vu. Will this be an end before it begins? Will he decide that this won't work out before trying? We are brand new and so we're not in love or committed or anything of that sort...we just started to go out on dates, so this could be easier to break it off now then trying, getting more emotions involved, and not having it work. The worst thing is, all of these things are running through my mind, and Neil has not given me any reason at all to believe this...I am just assuming because of the streak of luck I've been having.
Before work I felt really frustrated...am I just not meant to be happy? Here is this really cool guy that i've been enjoying talking to, being with so far, and now there is that chance that he may not see me as something worth trying. It's unfair to think that of him, and I shouldn't put him underneath what others have done before, but I am so sick of the disappointment. I talked to a couple of my friends, and they really made me feel 100% better. My coworker was like, "Ash, enjoy the roller coaster ride while it lasts! If you keep worrying about it ending, then it will. Not all rides are the same...it could be the same roller coaster but the results each time are different. Just enjoy the ride!" He's right... I think will. My friend John says, "You've got 2 options. You can either be negative and be miserable/anxious or you can be positive, neutral/happy, and look forward to the next date you'll have in 10 days or so." I choose positive :)
His name is Neil, 29 from South Bend. I met him via OKCupid. He initiated conversation a few weeks ago, and we exchanged messages back and forth. Very cool guy! I left for Texas, and I thought I would have access to a computer, but found out we were doing a road trip across Texas, and I wasn't sure how often I would have access to a computer. So, I gave him my number, and said he could text me or call me whenever. About the second half of my trip, we started talking on the phone...most convos were at least two hours. I was liking who I was getting to know...he is just a really nice guy, down to earth, LOVES sports, and an all around sweetheart. I returned from Texas this past Monday, and we had our first date on Tuesday, a lunch date. We were there a little over an hour as I had class and he had to go back to work. He was about to get a promotion for his job, and he was telling me all sorts of stuff it could entail like traveling all over the country. I thought it was exciting and of course I was jealous because seriously, who wouldn't want to get paid to travel all over?! He walked me to my car, kissed me, and said he would see me tomorrow, our 2nd date.
The next night I met him and his friend at the Notre Dame Men's Basketball game. I made it at half time because I had to work. It was a really good time! Everything went fine, and Wednesday was the last night I would see him til what I thought was next week.
Yesterday was his first day in Chicago finding about his promotion. First mission, go to Phoenix next week to train, which meant cancelling our third date on Tuesday. I wasn't mad at all, I was more happy for him because he was thrilled. Then, fear kind of started to linger...deja vu. Will this be an end before it begins? Will he decide that this won't work out before trying? We are brand new and so we're not in love or committed or anything of that sort...we just started to go out on dates, so this could be easier to break it off now then trying, getting more emotions involved, and not having it work. The worst thing is, all of these things are running through my mind, and Neil has not given me any reason at all to believe this...I am just assuming because of the streak of luck I've been having.
Before work I felt really frustrated...am I just not meant to be happy? Here is this really cool guy that i've been enjoying talking to, being with so far, and now there is that chance that he may not see me as something worth trying. It's unfair to think that of him, and I shouldn't put him underneath what others have done before, but I am so sick of the disappointment. I talked to a couple of my friends, and they really made me feel 100% better. My coworker was like, "Ash, enjoy the roller coaster ride while it lasts! If you keep worrying about it ending, then it will. Not all rides are the same...it could be the same roller coaster but the results each time are different. Just enjoy the ride!" He's right... I think will. My friend John says, "You've got 2 options. You can either be negative and be miserable/anxious or you can be positive, neutral/happy, and look forward to the next date you'll have in 10 days or so." I choose positive :)