Jul 18, 2008 20:19
I have come to learn that most people have walls.
Walls to keep people in,
Walls to keep people out.
Throughout life, people break down these walls
in order to bond and connect with other people.
The logic: keep the walls up until a person proves him/herself worthy to break it down.
Those of us without walls are illogical.
Whats to keep someone from hurting us?
From manipulating us?
Nothing.
We put ourselves completely out there.
Open, free, caring, trusting, and vulnerable.
I show people the trust, warmth, and loyalty of my personality right away, no strings attached.
Perhaps this is why it is so easy for people to open up with me, connect with me, talk to me.
Then, when a situation arises and I am betrayed, mislead, or even manipulated...
My walls go up.
They go up fast and they go up strong.
Impermeable to second chances.
I don't often make the same mistake twice.
I'm not saying this is the right way,
and it's certainly not the best way.
And I didn't choose to be this way...
Trust me, it's far easier to break down walls,
it's a lot more work to put them up...
contemplative