in response:
it's interesting to read other people's livejournals-- especially if they're directed at you. after reading your journal entry, it made me realize how much you love me. your words, even your written ones, convey all the love you give me in person. that says a lot because, for some reason, your letters don't show as much emotion as when you tell me in person; but this one did. i love you. and i promise to be as committed to you as i was before this all happened. the fact that you're changing your whole lifestyle just for me means a lot. i appreciate all that you do and i only hope that i do as much as you do for me. life seems so much easier knowing that you're there. sometimes i allow emotion to take over and forego logic, but for big decisions, i need to think about the logical aspect. which is why i hesitate about the february thing. i would love to do anything to make you happy, and i would love to see your reaction when i tell you "yes" to that, but i can't. not yet. i know you understand, and quite possibly deep down you might hope that as the time nears us, i just might change my mind, but i don't think so. i love you, but we must think this throughly; i stand by my ground. i love you.