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this is going to sound really gay of me but....
there are certain times where i'm so full of love that i don't know what to do with it so i just cry. i cried a lot today. have you guys seen hotel rwanda? i have never once in my life gotten up from a movie for any reason but this was too much for me to take. i was incapable of watching it as a movie and honestly felt that i was watching real life. i saw no one as actors i saw them as real people and no matter how hard i treid to put my usual "this is just a movie" block up i wasn't able to. i started crying maybe 10 minutes into the film and not once did i stop. after 2 hours of straight tears you'd think i'd run out. but no, my head hurt, my eyes were puffy as all hell but the tears kept coming. then right before i saw what they did with the kids in the UN car i got my ass up and left. it was too much. never have i experienced anything like that in my life. do you undersand that while that shit was going on we were living a relatively carefree existance...wherever. and when all the white people left...fuck dude. and the kids. and then the guy said "i wish i could have done more" and know what?? he meant it.
and i was really sad when i left that movie. and that's ok. and i wanted the people i went with to know that that's ok. if i "leave the movie in the theatre" the movie didn't serve its real purpose. it's ok to leave most movies in the theatre like or even other sad movies like say titanic (ha!) but a movie like hotel rwanda you do not leave in the theatre. you take that shit out into the world and you do something about it. i don't know what as long as its something. you make sure to take that out of the theatre. yes, it's a movie but it's not fictional. its not something that we should just be entertained by for 2 hours then go home and forget. i'm so lame. i'm like lecturing. anyways, i think you should see it. if possible in a theatre.
on other news. i'm sooooo tired but can't sleep. what else is new.
and it's snowing like balls here! blizzard baby. spossed to be the biggest since the 70's! pretty cool huh? we're suppossedly getting 3 inches an hour.
there are certain times where i'm so full of love that i don't know what to do with it so i just cry. i cried a lot today. have you guys seen hotel rwanda? i have never once in my life gotten up from a movie for any reason but this was too much for me to take. i was incapable of watching it as a movie and honestly felt that i was watching real life. i saw no one as actors i saw them as real people and no matter how hard i treid to put my usual "this is just a movie" block up i wasn't able to. i started crying maybe 10 minutes into the film and not once did i stop. after 2 hours of straight tears you'd think i'd run out. but no, my head hurt, my eyes were puffy as all hell but the tears kept coming. then right before i saw what they did with the kids in the UN car i got my ass up and left. it was too much. never have i experienced anything like that in my life. do you undersand that while that shit was going on we were living a relatively carefree existance...wherever. and when all the white people left...fuck dude. and the kids. and then the guy said "i wish i could have done more" and know what?? he meant it.
and i was really sad when i left that movie. and that's ok. and i wanted the people i went with to know that that's ok. if i "leave the movie in the theatre" the movie didn't serve its real purpose. it's ok to leave most movies in the theatre like or even other sad movies like say titanic (ha!) but a movie like hotel rwanda you do not leave in the theatre. you take that shit out into the world and you do something about it. i don't know what as long as its something. you make sure to take that out of the theatre. yes, it's a movie but it's not fictional. its not something that we should just be entertained by for 2 hours then go home and forget. i'm so lame. i'm like lecturing. anyways, i think you should see it. if possible in a theatre.
on other news. i'm sooooo tired but can't sleep. what else is new.
and it's snowing like balls here! blizzard baby. spossed to be the biggest since the 70's! pretty cool huh? we're suppossedly getting 3 inches an hour.