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i'm at my parent's house right now. wow. this sounds weird to me. i feel hollow. i really feel hollow. like this past week hasn't particularly been real or something. work has been fine. i like the new job, alot. it's wonderful. and not living with my family, that's been spiffy. i just don't know whether i can keep playing my life the way i do. part of me wants to start drowning in liquor, but i know that's not good... and a huge part of me doesn't give a shit. hell, i don't even know why i keep updating this. it's not like anyone actually cares (the one thing from that generated lj thats actually true). maybe i'm just becoming more cynical and depressed because of the season. i highly doubt it though. i'm slightly excited that "chicago" is running on bravo, repeatedly. so i can at least watch that.
it feels like i'm losing my best friend. i don't know what to do. i'm falling apart, with nothing i can do. i'm falling down a spiral.
i just don't know anymore. and i feel like i can't even talk to anyone anymore... i'm so distant. i've lost most of the thoughts i've had other than it's everything i always deserve. life doesn't ever let me get back up. i'm just not sure anymore. and don't rush out to respond. i know none of you will.
it feels like i'm losing my best friend. i don't know what to do. i'm falling apart, with nothing i can do. i'm falling down a spiral.
i just don't know anymore. and i feel like i can't even talk to anyone anymore... i'm so distant. i've lost most of the thoughts i've had other than it's everything i always deserve. life doesn't ever let me get back up. i'm just not sure anymore. and don't rush out to respond. i know none of you will.