Meh..

[starlights]

I'm truly beginning to doubt the purpose for keeping this journal at all. As someone pointed out to me, making it friends only may only give me a reason to post more personal stuff that, in my own opinion, could just become more depressing. My main hope in doing this was to actually make it less so, as lately, my anxiety and paranoia have been

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[aurusrage]

Hate to see that happen. LJ is a good idea, but as everything can be used for good or evil. Distance yourself from the bad parts: gravecat's friends section was unreadable until it was culled of those bits, for example. You don't need to see LJ politics unless you want to go looking for them, right?
Then find a reason to post. Everyone angsts, wanna be different? Post your art and anything informative you come across, maybe. Essay/rant against negative things, write articles about positive things. Ask yourself 'who cares?' when you post, and try to write things everyone could enjoy or learn from.

[starlights]

Yeah, I think I just need a new change of scenery. I'm heading into a new area of my life, so I may just make a new journal. I'll keep this one up, but I won't post to it much, if at all.

I know GC did that too, at one point. So have many of my friends. So no harm in that, I guess.

Thanks.

[g4sheriff]

I wish I could help you out...but I just...post what I post, and either people like it...or not. And I don't really worry about too much else. I do it for me, sometimes just to release nervous energy, sometimes to see what other people have to say, and sometimes just to get some sort of human response.

But it all comes down to the fact that whatever I post is becaue I chose to put it up.

If LJ isn't doing that for you, then fuck it, find something else. Don't keep something around just because other people want it.

I would say, though, don't delete anything. Just keep it and tuck it away, don't worry about it. Someday you may want to go back and re-read what you wrote, what emotional and physical state you were in, and see how far you've come...or regressed...or stayed the same.

I do that occassionally with my Metrosheriff account. Makes me carefuly avoid the shit with Jes.

[starlights]

You make a good point that others have, as well.

I think I may just keep this one active and make a new journal, as a way to signify my movement and growth from part of life to the next. It'll still be here for me to look back on, but I won't be bogged down by all the emotions I feel radiating off of it. I have a tendency to pick those up in places.. even from objects and areas, not just people.

[hafoc]

I don't know. I'm glad to be able to keep in touch-- and you have a lot of useful and creative things to say too. Journal should be for your own good, though. If it's doing you more harm than good-- see you at FC, I hope.

After all, you didn't sign a contract to post. You don't HAVE to do any of this.

But there's nothing to say you can't take a break either. A little time off for thinking is never a bad thing.

[starlights]

I won't be at FC this year. There is bad blood between me and a few people working there, but aside from that.. I do not have the money to spend on it. Next year, though.. hopefully I'll make it.

I'm probably just going to make a new journal and start fresh, leaving this one here for reference and stuff. I might post in it now and again. I'll carry you over though, I like hearing from you.

[tired_one]

I'm sick of what it's become and how everybody knows each other and uses it as an excuse to fight, not get along. It's like, people pick sides and judge others without even knowing them.

People are people. They're going to do this no matter what medium of communication they're using. If this bunch really is having such a negative effect on you then start another account and leave off those you don't like. I mean, everyone snarks about everyone else once in awhile, but if this group is THAT negative then just ditch them. Seriously. There are tons of groups/communities/people on lj who are so positive and supportive of each other. You just need to plug into some of those.

And why is real life conflict always constantly overflowing into it? People think computers are a seperate universe or something...but how can real life not overflow into it? Especially since these are journals...I thought the purpose of them was to record and discuss real life events.

[starlights]

I know. I've thought of all that. It doesn't make it any less annoying, though. I'm just being bitchy, lately, that's all.

I just think that people should be a bit more thoughtful, overall. It's just human nature that bad things happen, though. You'd just think if someone had an issue with me, they'd come to me about it or even just ignore me, not bother me on my journal or spread rumours about me on theirs.

Ah well. Such is life.

I'm probably going to make a new journal for a change of scenery and all. If you enjoy reading my journal or would like me to comment on your posts when I have the chance, let me know. I'll transfer you over.

[tired_one]

yes, I definitely want you to transfer me over. Thanks. And I love that you reply to all your posts. Lots of people don't do that.

[starlights]

Sure thing. :3

And, I try to respond to them. I don't always do so with all of them, just the ones which I feel are important and those I have something to say more on.

I like my friends and I like to communicate, but I'm learning when is and is not a good time to reply. Sometimes I talk too much. lol