Meh..
I'm truly beginning to doubt the purpose for keeping this journal at all. As someone pointed out to me, making it friends only may only give me a reason to post more personal stuff that, in my own opinion, could just become more depressing. My main hope in doing this was to actually make it less so, as lately, my anxiety and paranoia have been running away with me. But no matter the intention, that might not be the way it happens.
I am honestly getting tired of internet things. I hate how such a good idea as LiveJournal has become this crazy thing. And it seems to be worse in this little fandom I'm associated with. Honestly, I'm sick of that too. I'm sick of what it's become and how everybody knows each other and uses it as an excuse to fight, not get along. It's like, people pick sides and judge others without even knowing them. Am I the only one who sees something wrong with this picture? And why is real life conflict always constantly overflowing into it?
I mean, a lot of my online friends are furries. And let's face it, most furries have a tendency to get a little.. I dunno.. crazy with things, specially online. I know not all of you are like that, and almost everyone on my friends list does not seem to fall into that category. But recent (fake) studies have shown that LJ + Furries = BAD. Though, I think the term "Furries" could be replaced with "any emotionally charged close-knit group of people."
Anyway, some of you guys I've met, I really do consider you good friends. You mean a lot to me and I want to keep in touch with you. Sometimes, LJ seems the only way to do so effectively, as chatting directly is hard when there's fifty people I want to hear from. Yet, I don't know if that outweighs the cons of having this thing.
I'm not sure what to do, yet. I may just delete this. I might not. I might just start messing around with the friends list regardless of what anyone has said. I could make a new one or just go away completely. Those who care will always have other ways to reach me. I'm just beginning to doubt that much positivity can come from this and I really do just want to forget everything that has happened, here.
Help me find my reset button..
I am honestly getting tired of internet things. I hate how such a good idea as LiveJournal has become this crazy thing. And it seems to be worse in this little fandom I'm associated with. Honestly, I'm sick of that too. I'm sick of what it's become and how everybody knows each other and uses it as an excuse to fight, not get along. It's like, people pick sides and judge others without even knowing them. Am I the only one who sees something wrong with this picture? And why is real life conflict always constantly overflowing into it?
I mean, a lot of my online friends are furries. And let's face it, most furries have a tendency to get a little.. I dunno.. crazy with things, specially online. I know not all of you are like that, and almost everyone on my friends list does not seem to fall into that category. But recent (fake) studies have shown that LJ + Furries = BAD. Though, I think the term "Furries" could be replaced with "any emotionally charged close-knit group of people."
Anyway, some of you guys I've met, I really do consider you good friends. You mean a lot to me and I want to keep in touch with you. Sometimes, LJ seems the only way to do so effectively, as chatting directly is hard when there's fifty people I want to hear from. Yet, I don't know if that outweighs the cons of having this thing.
I'm not sure what to do, yet. I may just delete this. I might not. I might just start messing around with the friends list regardless of what anyone has said. I could make a new one or just go away completely. Those who care will always have other ways to reach me. I'm just beginning to doubt that much positivity can come from this and I really do just want to forget everything that has happened, here.
Help me find my reset button..