Stress n' Stuff
So hey and stuff f-list. I haven't posted anything not relating to fanfiction in a while, (well actually, I haven’t posted much of anything period in a while) so I thought I'd take some time and say hello and update and whatnot. :D
School is hard with a kid. I know I've been told this by several people, and I'm pretty sure it's a basically known fact-by everyone, but I seem to have never processed it before these last couple of weeks. Seriously, I only have one kid, how the hell do mother's with three and four kids do it? And it's not really hard, as in it's hard to learn or hard to get to class or find babysitting, it's more like I stress out a shit-ton more.
I drop Creature off at my parent's before class every day, and then pick her up when I'm done and we go to the park or we come home and do coloring or tea parties or something. I make dinner, daddy comes home, we eat, and then we hang out-the three of us-until she goes to bed. Then I do my homework, write if I have time, and then pass out. It seems pretty easygoing and organized on the surface. Unfortunately, it's anything but.
School in and of itself isn't all that bad, and I find myself wishing for the days when all I had to do was go to class and then come home to my parent's house to do homework or practice for whatever sport I was doing. I remember school being really hard when I was seventeen-eighteen, but the rest of my life was easy. Now, it's the schoolwork that's easy, and the life that's hard. Not sure why that is (the school being easier part). Does life experience really make that much difference? Meh. But yeah, I'm in this drama/lit class and I don't even have to think really. All we have to do is read the plays the teacher assigns and then discuss them in class. I can usually get away with not reading and then just talking off of someone else's comments. Japanese is harder, but I have haru_42 taking the class with me, and we have study sessions every week that help a lot. (I also just got a tutor and he’s really cool.) The fact that I love the class with a Burning, Flame of Youth helps too. I've never been so enthusiastic about a class before in my life. :D I'm also helping out with the college’s fall play, and that's been really fun. So school, when just looking at school, is not a problem.
Work is a little weird, I'm officially on call now. I don't have a set schedule, so the only times I go in are when someone calls in sick or doesn't show up. This is kind of good because I have my weekends off for the first time in three years, but now I don't know when I'm going to work until the last second. I think I may be stressing a little all the time about this in the back of my head. Always waiting for a call to screw up my night and then fuck me over the next day. At least it's not like I HAVE to go in, but obviously I don't want to say no very often because I don't want them to stop calling me completely. No hours means no money.
I'm pretty sure my biggest problem/stresser is my babysitting. My parents are totally cool about watching Creature while I'm at school, but if I leave her at their house for ONE MINUTE LONGER THEN THAT, the calls and texts and bitching starts. They make it very clear (without actually saying it outright) that if I need to take an extra half hour to go over some set design things with the stage manager, it will be the biggest inconvenience of their lives. And then there's just these random days when I drop her off, and my dad actually asks if I can get her earlier because he needs to go run an errand. (An errand, I might add, that involves something like driving somewhere and dropping off a letter. A task easily done with a three year old in the back seat.) First off: No. I can't just skip class to come and get her. Second: There's grandpa and three kids over the age of sixteen at the house that can watch her. Why does my dad have to do that? Now I'm worried all day that Creature's in the way, inconveniencing everyone, being a pain in the ass, not being properly watched, etc etc. And then God forbid that I have a test or tutoring session not during class time. How dare I plan something outside of the agreed schedule! Don't I understand what a HUGE undertaking it is to watch Creature every day for a couple hours? Do I actually expect MORE babysitting!?!?
I guess I shouldn't complain because I get free childcare... but, you know I really don't think it's worth it. I'm probably going to-no, no, I am going to place her in the school daycare winter quarter. She wants to go to school so badly, and it would be the biggest load of my shoulders EVER. Not to mention it's actually priced quite well, and it'll save me a LOT of gas. Driving twenty minutes to and from my parent's twice a day when the college is only five minutes from my house is getting frustrating, and very expensive.
Now if I could just get husband to stop whining about watching her during study sessions. He's a great guy, and I love him to death, but he is pretty worthless on the weekends. He has that not-working-brain-must-stay-off thing that guys have REALLY BAD. For about two hours after he gets home on weekdays, and pretty much all of Sunday, he's like a second child-a much needier and whiny child. It's kind of unfair. I do school, and then watch baby, clean the house, laundry, make dinner, work, etc, and he can't watch her on the weekend for a couple hours? I think this may be a pretty common complaint from moms across the universe, but it's still annoying.
But really though, the husband problem isn’t really all that horrible of a problem. He’s a good guy and he brings home a pretty decent paycheck. Yay for being able to pay the bills. :D
But that’s it I think. No good stories about old ladies eating their poo or anything, sorry about that. Maybe next time. I hope everyone else is having a good fall. Hope everyone had a good Halloween, and if you’re going to school, or taking care of kids, or working or whatever, everything is going well.
xD
School is hard with a kid. I know I've been told this by several people, and I'm pretty sure it's a basically known fact-by everyone, but I seem to have never processed it before these last couple of weeks. Seriously, I only have one kid, how the hell do mother's with three and four kids do it? And it's not really hard, as in it's hard to learn or hard to get to class or find babysitting, it's more like I stress out a shit-ton more.
I drop Creature off at my parent's before class every day, and then pick her up when I'm done and we go to the park or we come home and do coloring or tea parties or something. I make dinner, daddy comes home, we eat, and then we hang out-the three of us-until she goes to bed. Then I do my homework, write if I have time, and then pass out. It seems pretty easygoing and organized on the surface. Unfortunately, it's anything but.
School in and of itself isn't all that bad, and I find myself wishing for the days when all I had to do was go to class and then come home to my parent's house to do homework or practice for whatever sport I was doing. I remember school being really hard when I was seventeen-eighteen, but the rest of my life was easy. Now, it's the schoolwork that's easy, and the life that's hard. Not sure why that is (the school being easier part). Does life experience really make that much difference? Meh. But yeah, I'm in this drama/lit class and I don't even have to think really. All we have to do is read the plays the teacher assigns and then discuss them in class. I can usually get away with not reading and then just talking off of someone else's comments. Japanese is harder, but I have haru_42 taking the class with me, and we have study sessions every week that help a lot. (I also just got a tutor and he’s really cool.) The fact that I love the class with a Burning, Flame of Youth helps too. I've never been so enthusiastic about a class before in my life. :D I'm also helping out with the college’s fall play, and that's been really fun. So school, when just looking at school, is not a problem.
Work is a little weird, I'm officially on call now. I don't have a set schedule, so the only times I go in are when someone calls in sick or doesn't show up. This is kind of good because I have my weekends off for the first time in three years, but now I don't know when I'm going to work until the last second. I think I may be stressing a little all the time about this in the back of my head. Always waiting for a call to screw up my night and then fuck me over the next day. At least it's not like I HAVE to go in, but obviously I don't want to say no very often because I don't want them to stop calling me completely. No hours means no money.
I'm pretty sure my biggest problem/stresser is my babysitting. My parents are totally cool about watching Creature while I'm at school, but if I leave her at their house for ONE MINUTE LONGER THEN THAT, the calls and texts and bitching starts. They make it very clear (without actually saying it outright) that if I need to take an extra half hour to go over some set design things with the stage manager, it will be the biggest inconvenience of their lives. And then there's just these random days when I drop her off, and my dad actually asks if I can get her earlier because he needs to go run an errand. (An errand, I might add, that involves something like driving somewhere and dropping off a letter. A task easily done with a three year old in the back seat.) First off: No. I can't just skip class to come and get her. Second: There's grandpa and three kids over the age of sixteen at the house that can watch her. Why does my dad have to do that? Now I'm worried all day that Creature's in the way, inconveniencing everyone, being a pain in the ass, not being properly watched, etc etc. And then God forbid that I have a test or tutoring session not during class time. How dare I plan something outside of the agreed schedule! Don't I understand what a HUGE undertaking it is to watch Creature every day for a couple hours? Do I actually expect MORE babysitting!?!?
I guess I shouldn't complain because I get free childcare... but, you know I really don't think it's worth it. I'm probably going to-no, no, I am going to place her in the school daycare winter quarter. She wants to go to school so badly, and it would be the biggest load of my shoulders EVER. Not to mention it's actually priced quite well, and it'll save me a LOT of gas. Driving twenty minutes to and from my parent's twice a day when the college is only five minutes from my house is getting frustrating, and very expensive.
Now if I could just get husband to stop whining about watching her during study sessions. He's a great guy, and I love him to death, but he is pretty worthless on the weekends. He has that not-working-brain-must-stay-off thing that guys have REALLY BAD. For about two hours after he gets home on weekdays, and pretty much all of Sunday, he's like a second child-a much needier and whiny child. It's kind of unfair. I do school, and then watch baby, clean the house, laundry, make dinner, work, etc, and he can't watch her on the weekend for a couple hours? I think this may be a pretty common complaint from moms across the universe, but it's still annoying.
But really though, the husband problem isn’t really all that horrible of a problem. He’s a good guy and he brings home a pretty decent paycheck. Yay for being able to pay the bills. :D
But that’s it I think. No good stories about old ladies eating their poo or anything, sorry about that. Maybe next time. I hope everyone else is having a good fall. Hope everyone had a good Halloween, and if you’re going to school, or taking care of kids, or working or whatever, everything is going well.
xD