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So for the first time in two years there is a man in my life who has the power to make me cry. I don’t know exactly what I think that means but I do know that I hate it. I have to tell you that for the past two years I haven’t exactly loved the single life, I’ve dated some but never latched onto any one guy and I wasn’t sure why. I’d have fun hanging out but the second they mentioned something close to a relationship I was the first to run for the hills. I began to think that maybe I just didn’t really want to be with anyone, maybe there was something about being single I didn’t realize I liked. Now that Dan has come into my life I realize that it wasn’t about wanting to be single at all, it was about not wanting to be with someone when I knew it was wrong. I wish I could say that I knew where this thing with Dan and I is headed but honestly I have no clue. Tomorrow I might think I know exactly what is going on but at this rate I don’t expect anyone to believe me cuz I don’t even believe myself anymore. I am not typically quite so wishy-washy about things like this but I just guess its something about this boy. Only time will tell ... right now I will say for the record that I hope it works out but I will not count on it. Okay I really need to get some decent sleep! G’nite