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[stargazer_baby]

i'm sitting here trying to write my directive study
my whole reason for being here this week
for not going home
and all i can hear
is thomas' words in my head
telling me i don't know how to write a sentence
and that i won't go anywhere in life
and she turns into my father
with my math homework
i just can get over the feeling
that i'm not worth it
that i'm not strong enough
that i'm not going to be able to make it
because i'm just not smart enough
that i'm just chasing a dragon

"i can see the perfect sky is torn
i'm all out of faith
this is how i feel
i'm cold and i'm ashamed bound and broken on the floor
your a little late i'm already torn"

yeah i rediscovered natalie imbruglia

i just in someways would like to be done with school
but i know that i can't get anything with my classics degree
and i really do enjoy what i'm studying
i just feel a little disconnected today
a little bit without faith in myself
or in the school system
or in people in general