Do you feel like I do?!?!
So i get a phone call today finally from my dad. havent talked to him like a month probably. so the conversation is goin nice, its goin fine...then not even 5 minutes, gets on the phone "Hey LOU send some money" and hangs up. i hang up with my dad b/c hes gettin pissed and i yell at my mom. then they put a guilt trip on me making me think that my dad is all in the wrong and that hes making me get mad at them like i dont have a fuckin brain for myself. just b/c my dad hasnt sent child support money which yes i admit is wrong of him not to...but hes my father. i cant hate him FOREVER! unlike my mother. who can hate anyone and everyone if she pleases. now i have guilt from both sides. and im so tired of this conflict. its really un-needed when i have to be in the middle. parents are so gay.
ANYWAYS....
School was alright today. nothing new, just all the same old shit. alex is so funny. we're becoming awesome friends. it makes me happy considering ive known him forever and never really gotten to know him.
i got home and called up David. Hung out with him for a while. He's so lovely to be around. Makes me think that I can actually live with a smile always on my face.
gosh this thing with my dad is gonna blow up in my face. my parents are gonna make me feel so guilty for feeling something on my own and wanting to talk to my father.
ANYWAYS....
School was alright today. nothing new, just all the same old shit. alex is so funny. we're becoming awesome friends. it makes me happy considering ive known him forever and never really gotten to know him.
i got home and called up David. Hung out with him for a while. He's so lovely to be around. Makes me think that I can actually live with a smile always on my face.
gosh this thing with my dad is gonna blow up in my face. my parents are gonna make me feel so guilty for feeling something on my own and wanting to talk to my father.