I don't know what to do...
I thought I couldn't deal very well when my Grandpa died...
And now my Grandma is gone, too.
...
The 'celebration of life' is tomorrow...it's very soon...she died on Wednesday in the hospital...she had been in the hospital for the past 2 months and I had been visiting her every day that I could...I thought she would be out of the hospital very soon the last time that I visited because she was doing so well(Sunday, as I had to work Monday and Tuesday)...and since Wednesday, I've been laying in bed most of the days...I just don't feel like I can do anything.
She had been in there because she fell and broke her hip...after about a month they let her go. Then she had a heart attack and had to go back to the hospital...when she got back to the hospital she got pneumonia...and then it cleared. Then she got the Norwalk flu...then that cleared as well. She then had a blood clot in her leg and so she was on blood thinners so that it wouldn't travel to her lungs. On Sunday she told me she was going to go home soon because she was feeling a lot better. She had had a blood transfusion the day before and looked soooo well. I told her that the next time I would be by would be on Wednesday and she smiled and gave me a hug and a kiss. Then she waved happily as I left. When I returned on Wednesday it was like she was in a coma...she was breathing heavily in her sleep. Her eyes kept opening but she wasn't awake. It just reminded me so much of my Grandpa...and it absolutely crushed me.
Pete's been coming over to check on me everyday and playing board games with me and bringing snacks to make sure I've been eating.
Suzy's stagette was this weekend but I couldn't even go.
I feel as though I am the only one that continues to be upset, though. My sister was out clubbing yesterday and my brother is already back to work. My dad is going about like nothing is wrong and my mom has been acting her usual self.
I wanted to write a speech for tomorrow, but I don't know if I can manage it.
I feel like there's a hole in my heart.
And now my Grandma is gone, too.
...
The 'celebration of life' is tomorrow...it's very soon...she died on Wednesday in the hospital...she had been in the hospital for the past 2 months and I had been visiting her every day that I could...I thought she would be out of the hospital very soon the last time that I visited because she was doing so well(Sunday, as I had to work Monday and Tuesday)...and since Wednesday, I've been laying in bed most of the days...I just don't feel like I can do anything.
She had been in there because she fell and broke her hip...after about a month they let her go. Then she had a heart attack and had to go back to the hospital...when she got back to the hospital she got pneumonia...and then it cleared. Then she got the Norwalk flu...then that cleared as well. She then had a blood clot in her leg and so she was on blood thinners so that it wouldn't travel to her lungs. On Sunday she told me she was going to go home soon because she was feeling a lot better. She had had a blood transfusion the day before and looked soooo well. I told her that the next time I would be by would be on Wednesday and she smiled and gave me a hug and a kiss. Then she waved happily as I left. When I returned on Wednesday it was like she was in a coma...she was breathing heavily in her sleep. Her eyes kept opening but she wasn't awake. It just reminded me so much of my Grandpa...and it absolutely crushed me.
Pete's been coming over to check on me everyday and playing board games with me and bringing snacks to make sure I've been eating.
Suzy's stagette was this weekend but I couldn't even go.
I feel as though I am the only one that continues to be upset, though. My sister was out clubbing yesterday and my brother is already back to work. My dad is going about like nothing is wrong and my mom has been acting her usual self.
I wanted to write a speech for tomorrow, but I don't know if I can manage it.
I feel like there's a hole in my heart.