Can I be your memory?
I got a letter from ITT Tech today.
TAKE THAT ALL YOU GAMER LOSERS. HAHA.
Everyone's been talking about college lately. Honestly, I've had enough of it. I don't care about that right now because I have nowhere to go. I like the idea that I won't have anything to hold me down for a whole year before I get to decide. I love that freedom.
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It's been told that I have a horrible temper. I hardly yell at people, but I talk all kinds of shit before shutting down on everyone. I know that. But often other people don't. And whenever they try to talk to me and find out what's wrong when I get into one of my moods, it just makes me feel worse. It's always been that way - since I was a little kid. I'll probably grow out of it of course but right now, it's me. The best thing anyone can do is just leave me alone and not try and comfort me [unless it's someone in particular]. The worse thing someone can do is yell at me cause then I'll just shut down for hours or days at a time, wondering what I did wrong to make them yell at me. I know - it's a stupid shitty circle that shouldn't occur in the first place if I could just get over myself and open up. But I can't. I never got the chance to learn how to do that. I'd been alone for such a long time. It still eats me up inside.
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TAKE THAT ALL YOU GAMER LOSERS. HAHA.
Everyone's been talking about college lately. Honestly, I've had enough of it. I don't care about that right now because I have nowhere to go. I like the idea that I won't have anything to hold me down for a whole year before I get to decide. I love that freedom.
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It's been told that I have a horrible temper. I hardly yell at people, but I talk all kinds of shit before shutting down on everyone. I know that. But often other people don't. And whenever they try to talk to me and find out what's wrong when I get into one of my moods, it just makes me feel worse. It's always been that way - since I was a little kid. I'll probably grow out of it of course but right now, it's me. The best thing anyone can do is just leave me alone and not try and comfort me [unless it's someone in particular]. The worse thing someone can do is yell at me cause then I'll just shut down for hours or days at a time, wondering what I did wrong to make them yell at me. I know - it's a stupid shitty circle that shouldn't occur in the first place if I could just get over myself and open up. But I can't. I never got the chance to learn how to do that. I'd been alone for such a long time. It still eats me up inside.
xx