a moment to clear my head
I have to get all the stuff out to jacque, i have to grow a sack and make the decision of whether to ask Mary jo or Mr B for a rec. I feel like there is no more time and i have to remember what it was like to try and squeeze every second out of the day. I have to decide if I want to apply to LMU or if I am ditching it. I have to register for those two online classes. Im kind of excited to get back into the grind of it all, although I wont be in class it will be nice to read and study and get A's there is such a simple pleasure in that. The rules and guidelines that you can follow and succeed at. Although the grades wont really matter, itll make me happy. rekindling my love for starbucks, while wallowing in self pity and frustration at my personal weakness and inability to control my stupid mouth. I suppose there is always room for growth, maybe I will do better at christmas, keep the bitchy comments to a minimum try to let sloanes heckling roll off of me rather than frustrating me to the point of doling it back to him.
these essays are so tough I cant figure out what i want to tell them, how i want to portray my story or how i have come to this place. I have pages written but none of it sounds "right". i will just keep grinding until i find something magical that will stick.
at the same time, im trying to relieve myself of feelings of obligation towards other people, i shouldnt want to act out of obligation.
these essays are so tough I cant figure out what i want to tell them, how i want to portray my story or how i have come to this place. I have pages written but none of it sounds "right". i will just keep grinding until i find something magical that will stick.
at the same time, im trying to relieve myself of feelings of obligation towards other people, i shouldnt want to act out of obligation.