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so i set him up to be this perfect guy, i expect him to drop everything when i don't feel good; he should know to chase after me. but he isn't, he doesn't, and he never has. i'm blaming myself for setting my standards for him too high, and we're starting to fight every night. he left this morning and he wasn't even going to say bye because he thought i was still upset at him. he's never had a complaint about anything i've ever done but i sit there and pick him apart. so i guess what i'm getting at is i'm a bitch and i'm selfish. so the tension is still there from this morning and if we grow apart because i'm a moody bitch i'm going to never forgive myself because he's the best i've ever had. he'll look at me and ask "how did i get so lucky" and it's like a guilt trip for me because i feel like i treat him like shit. god i'm horrible.