pity party for 1?
so i've been severely resisting the temptation to blog for some time. i didn't want to blog when i'm going through not good times and myspace is so public i feel too exposed there...and i'm bored so here goes....
in the past year and a half i've lived in 4 different cities. experienced some new things and as always regret not trying more.
today was not a great day...my only friend left in sarasota told me to fuck off and I got asked what i do all day by a friend of a friend..
i'm staying in tally with friends trying to figure out my next move/looking for jobs online. i miss new york but i couldnt find a job that didnt involve asking for money on the streets. (no joke.- but not as a bum, but for organizations, silly!) i do not belong anywhere i go it seems. i'm either way over or under qualified for every job i look for. the last job i was at people constantly asked "what are you doing here?" i didn't know myself but i decided to leave once 90% of the staff got laid off because the holiday season was over.
i may try going back to new york once the weather warms up. but my sister now lives with her bf so that complicates matters. maybe sean will find an apartment and i'll move in with him.
point is, i'm lost and it sucks.
in the past year and a half i've lived in 4 different cities. experienced some new things and as always regret not trying more.
today was not a great day...my only friend left in sarasota told me to fuck off and I got asked what i do all day by a friend of a friend..
i'm staying in tally with friends trying to figure out my next move/looking for jobs online. i miss new york but i couldnt find a job that didnt involve asking for money on the streets. (no joke.- but not as a bum, but for organizations, silly!) i do not belong anywhere i go it seems. i'm either way over or under qualified for every job i look for. the last job i was at people constantly asked "what are you doing here?" i didn't know myself but i decided to leave once 90% of the staff got laid off because the holiday season was over.
i may try going back to new york once the weather warms up. but my sister now lives with her bf so that complicates matters. maybe sean will find an apartment and i'll move in with him.
point is, i'm lost and it sucks.