Run down and falling apart.
That feeling of wanting to give up is just overwhelming at times. I guess I'm just tired. At work I keep putting up with things that people just shouldn't put up with and I do it with a fucking smile. I come home to find myself wanting to scream with the frustration of not being able to do anything to help any of my freinds. strblysneetch I'm praying to the gods and spirits that you find the job you want. Another perfect job. elmos_friend I'm also praying to the gods and spirits that your father has a full recovery and that your freind gets all the help she can. Drea I only wish you could see yourself like I do and stop trying to kill yourself over what others think (you are far braver than you give yourself credit for). woodsball_ronin I too hope that you find your perfect job, not just the one that is okay for now. After all the useless feeling spreads I go read or watch something that reminds me of my Mom. That's a frakking problem I really can't fix. I'm not a cancer specialist or a cancer researcher so I'm stuck with knowing my Mother is going to die of a horrible frakking disease.
This year was suppose to be better. I had hopes of good moments and happy gatherings. Now I'm just home sick because it's the only way my body can deal. If I could send a wish out to the space pirates circling the sun, I would ask them to pass on a wish of good tidings and lucky finds for my freinds. Finis.