I'm breaking
There's so much stress in me right now. I was all set to have a nice night, watch a Kirosawa film, get a jump on tomorrow. And then one of my roommates unceremoniously tells me that everyone's moving out come September. Oh, and can she have the apartment because she has 3 friends she'd like to live with?
WTF????????? How can I possibly deal with that all at once? I didn't react, or make a big deal, but crap I don't think I can handle much more dissappointment right now. 2 years of grad school with a big dream of a good job at the end, and now the economy frickin' self-destructs and leaves me hanging. Hells bells, I'll be luck if I can pay rent, let alone move to a new apartment!!! How the hell did my life end up like this? I look back to my early days out of college, and I think about how crazy but hopeful things were. Now I think I've carved my mind up with nervousa so badly that hope is gone; I don't believe I can do *anything* anymore.
Years of training, and I don't think I can do the job. Personal projects and ideas running through my head all the time, and I feel like I'm burned-out. When will it end? When will I catch a break? HOW do I make it all come together???
WTF????????? How can I possibly deal with that all at once? I didn't react, or make a big deal, but crap I don't think I can handle much more dissappointment right now. 2 years of grad school with a big dream of a good job at the end, and now the economy frickin' self-destructs and leaves me hanging. Hells bells, I'll be luck if I can pay rent, let alone move to a new apartment!!! How the hell did my life end up like this? I look back to my early days out of college, and I think about how crazy but hopeful things were. Now I think I've carved my mind up with nervousa so badly that hope is gone; I don't believe I can do *anything* anymore.
Years of training, and I don't think I can do the job. Personal projects and ideas running through my head all the time, and I feel like I'm burned-out. When will it end? When will I catch a break? HOW do I make it all come together???