just sharing thoughts
However corrupt and unfair at times, the world is kind, and life is beautiful. It is in times of despair that we may learn to cherish each moment we're alive, because it's a gift. A short one, but a gift nonetheless. It's a cruel cycle that one must endure, to have to survive such crookedness, such betrayal, to achieve the correct humility. How tragic that to learn to love enduringly, the love must be tested, and those involved possibly, and most often, hurt. How many blows to the spirit must one take? How many faults must one commit? The integrity of one's moral character may be questioned a thousand times through introspection or outside observation before he or she is confident enough to, well, be confident, and love oneself truly and unconditionally. It is ironic that to feel content with oneself, we must first be forced against our will to face ourselves in a raw and frightening confrontation. Until we learn to accept our own judgments of ourselves, we cannot accept those of others without self destructing, or at least second-guessing. Let alone using those judgments to our benefit. Though the cycle is never-ending, the duration of each stage is particular to the individual. Some repeat, others are only visited once. We are attracted to those in the same stage as ourselves, but depend on those in other stages to continue the process. Those ahead of us may ease the pain, and those behind us may fuel the fire. So which is it? Are we using ourselves to learn how to carry out healthy relationships (friends, significant others, parents, children, coworkers, teachers, students etc.) with others? Or are we using others to learn how to be self-reliant? It's a close call, don't you think?
Only I know where I've been, and what I've been through, as applies for every individual in this world.
Im learning how to be happy being alone at the end of the day, because that's where we all are; whether we realize it or not. I truly believe that.
But I also believe that the people in my life, past, present, and future, are a large part of me. I would not achieve one ounce of self-reliance, without being generously allowed to rely on them.
And without them, I most certainly wouldn't make it to the end of the day.
Only I know where I've been, and what I've been through, as applies for every individual in this world.
Im learning how to be happy being alone at the end of the day, because that's where we all are; whether we realize it or not. I truly believe that.
But I also believe that the people in my life, past, present, and future, are a large part of me. I would not achieve one ounce of self-reliance, without being generously allowed to rely on them.
And without them, I most certainly wouldn't make it to the end of the day.