A Piece Of Me Is Dying...

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my sister, i love her so much..she has hepitis c and there's nothing to cure her and she will die of it...at a young age, she may not even have kids and she has such high hopes she will... i wish i didn't know, my sister she's like my baby and i'm her mother i helped her did her hair she even stole my clothes hmm we've talked and in alot of ways my mom wouldn't be there for us we we're there for eachother, she's beautiful,she's my baby and she's dying.. i hate my mom for telling me this she alreadys tells me stuff i shouldn't know, its bad enuff i've seen things i shouldn't have seen but that couldn't be helped, she's told me stuff that i was emotionally ready to know i feel like i missed a childhood beacuse of all this, and i have hate for this, its like all the good childhood experiences i should of had, got replaced with experiences i shouldn't have had, i feel like i had to grow up faster then my friends and they can't understand or help me i feel like i'm a step above them and i never feel normal or like i should, its not fair, i dont wana watch her get sickly and die, i hate being the baby of the family you have to watch you family die b4 u its a horrible curse, i never never wanna go that way i dont and i wont do drugs, no more sex, i'm just gonna head her same route i refuse to, i rather take my life ahead of time then go that way... but it doesn't matter what i want or rather have i want my sis to live and have kids and i dont know how to react to this situration, i've lost my dad and grandpa but i wasn't attached to them they died when i was very young i never had anyone die really, and my sister, my baby, a peice of my life is dying, and there's nothing i can do at all, i have no control, and its scaring me...

Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
Kissed me unexpectedly
A moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
Took them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you

Don't think I'll write another letter
Watching there the pink sunset
Without thinking about you
I take a walk along the blue seaside
How will I sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby

If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you

Without a single hesitation
Without thought or reservation
Baby, I'll be waiting
Even if I never see your face
And wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you

I have loved you

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
With all my heart and all my soul
The world comes tumbling
And crumbling all around
I have loved you

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
I have loved you