Time.
It's funny how time and distance can change things. People you have known for years have suddenly become strangers. I never thought that would happen to us. I suppose the signs were there all along. I suppose I just wanted to think I was important to you. You never call or txt me. I am always the one who initiates contact. Always. And I'm starting to realize, this isn't recent. It was like that when I was still in buffalo. I stay at your house for almost a week and when we have free time to spend together, you'd rather sit alone in your room and watch tv? Is it really that horrible to spend time with me?
Conversely, it's funny how other people don't change. I won't see you for six months and when I do see you, it feels like not a day has passed. It's so easy and natural. I can't help but feel that this is what friendship is supposed to be like. You're supposed to want to be around your friends. They're supposed to make you happy.
At least I can say that on the day of my birthday, everyone made an effort to make it a special day for me.
It's disconcerting to go home and to feel unwelcome. I spend so much of my time trying to go back to that city, I miss it so much. I never expected that you wouldn't be happy to see me. I certainly missed you.
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