An honest to god secret.
Something no one knows about. Perhaps a few people guess, but I've never told another soul about this. I'll give you a hint, it's about a boy (not the movie).
I always tell people that I don't feel anything for you. The truth is that i'm scared you don't feel as strongly about me as I feel about you. Like maybe I can't lose what I pretend not to want.
As time passes, we remain close. There are moments where I think you want more with me. Perhaps not. I'm terrified to take down my walls with you so I guess we'll never know.