monologes
so, ive got auditions for districts tommorow - wish me luck. jenny and i are doing a scene, and i'm doing monologe and trying out for a small group musical. i don't know which i'll drop if i make the musical thing. i'm really nervous about that one because i hate singing right off the bat because i can't. grrr. so wish me lots of luck everybody, cause i'll need it. and then wow. our tiny tim for x-mas carol is an absolute doll. his name is nathan and he's six, and so cute and sweet and funny and i found myself tallying up how long its going to be until i have kids. come see him and everybody else Dec. 9 &10. It'll be okay, and we've got cute kids. pity party time: i'm feeling so left out of the loop with everything - i don't have anybody, and it just seems everybody has somebody. pat and abbey, elaine and jake, jenny and evan, alexa and adam...ect. and its all my friends going together, and so instead of losing 1, i lose 2, and i really don't wanna be a third wheel, and i find myself insanely jealous and it sucks because i don't get jealous very often, and i don't like this feeling. and it seems that they've changed and it sucks, like jake is pretty much an ass and a faker, but elaine hasn't changed thank god, and abbey's gotten really whiny and needy and judgemental, and just not very nice, and i'm not sure if it's just this year all together or just now, or what, but she's REALLY getting to me, and its not just jealousy and pity and what not either. she changed. she was more fun when she was anorexic. okay, that sounded horrible, and its not quite right. she was more fun when she was NOT anorexic, when she stopped caring what people thought and was fun and happy and not judgemental and hypocritical. that's more accurate. and pat...love the kid but he's obsessed. geez, im mean. mean but honest, whatever. so yeah, that was my rant. look for happier tidings next time...(i keep saying that, will it ever happen?) VOTE VOTE VOTE!!!
-Bethany
-Bethany