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Oh man. I wrote a whole entry last week detailing my 21st birthday and the events surrounding it, but lj ate it and I was too lazy to write a new one. Let's just suffice it to say that it was fun, I had a good time with my sisters and non-greek ladies and got some really sweet cards and gifts from them. Even if Shelley and Kate DID make me dress up like Jorge Posada to go the bar.
So, not much new lately. I think I really hate late fall; I always seem to get depressed around this time of year. Then again, I can't really complain because it's not like I've done anything to really break out of this funk. I swore over the summer to really get into things this year and make more friends (particularly guy friends- I miss having them SO MUCH, I went from having more guys than girls in high school to having virtually none here after freshman year. Sick)but lately I haven't been able to do that at all. What I really need is to start dragging my ass to the gym and eating better, rather than just saying that I will- I always feel better when I am taking care of myself physically, then the mental stuff follows.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about high school and how I never really appreciated everything that I had then. I wish I had let more people know that I cared about them and worked harder to maintain my friendships with those people, because it seems as though a lot of them have drifted off and now I wonder what happened to them, and if we would still talk if I had tried harder. The same thing goes with my friends from freshman year. I guess I just wish that I had taken steps to make sure that people actually became my FRIENDS, and not just my acquaintances. I'll have to work on that. Eddie gave me some good advice last night, about how when I feel like no one really likes me, to not give up. I just don't want to end up to be a "douchebag karen" type of person... but whatever. I will work on that.
On another note, I have been itching to move to Boston lately. Like, really. I don't know why, it's not like I think it would miraculously change anything or that things would be different, but I do know that when I am down there to visit or for other things, I am more myself and feel more self-confident, probably because as opposed to cowtown Durham, NH, you are actually FORCED to interact with people in a city. Gah. I just need a vacation lol.
Ok, that sums up this month's whiney drivel. I'm going to try to update more frequently, even if they are random posts about pretty much nothing. Oh, and sorry I havent commented on anyone lately; It's not that I don't read, I'm just a lazy shit. :)
So, not much new lately. I think I really hate late fall; I always seem to get depressed around this time of year. Then again, I can't really complain because it's not like I've done anything to really break out of this funk. I swore over the summer to really get into things this year and make more friends (particularly guy friends- I miss having them SO MUCH, I went from having more guys than girls in high school to having virtually none here after freshman year. Sick)but lately I haven't been able to do that at all. What I really need is to start dragging my ass to the gym and eating better, rather than just saying that I will- I always feel better when I am taking care of myself physically, then the mental stuff follows.
Lately I have been thinking a lot about high school and how I never really appreciated everything that I had then. I wish I had let more people know that I cared about them and worked harder to maintain my friendships with those people, because it seems as though a lot of them have drifted off and now I wonder what happened to them, and if we would still talk if I had tried harder. The same thing goes with my friends from freshman year. I guess I just wish that I had taken steps to make sure that people actually became my FRIENDS, and not just my acquaintances. I'll have to work on that. Eddie gave me some good advice last night, about how when I feel like no one really likes me, to not give up. I just don't want to end up to be a "douchebag karen" type of person... but whatever. I will work on that.
On another note, I have been itching to move to Boston lately. Like, really. I don't know why, it's not like I think it would miraculously change anything or that things would be different, but I do know that when I am down there to visit or for other things, I am more myself and feel more self-confident, probably because as opposed to cowtown Durham, NH, you are actually FORCED to interact with people in a city. Gah. I just need a vacation lol.
Ok, that sums up this month's whiney drivel. I'm going to try to update more frequently, even if they are random posts about pretty much nothing. Oh, and sorry I havent commented on anyone lately; It's not that I don't read, I'm just a lazy shit. :)