This week
I'm taking off to Minnesota wednesday night. I really need this right now because I am going through a " rough" patch. The town I live in is very small and too many people have got involved with the " cat and I situation". I don't think I can take hearing one more thing. I used to want to know but every time I find something else out I go off the deep end. I am seriously considering moving up there. Trying to pick up my life from the point where I met her. Go back to school.. blah blah blah. I just find it really tough to live in this town right now because she still lives here. I know she has every right, it is just not helping my healing process by any means. I need new oppertunity right now. And all I have been doing is drinking to make this go away. Brett is going to move in with me this week. I will probablly sell this house as soon as I can though. I don't know if trying to go backwards is the right decision but right now it seems thats the only positive thought I have in my head. I guess people don't lie when they say this isn't easy. There is two sides to every story. I hope that people realize that. We had so many friends together... And I am starting to find the true ones I guess. I don't think a single one of my friends has befriended cat. I wouldn't expect them to though. I just want this anarchy that my life has become to stop. Im getting out of control.