Introspection... Yeah, it doesn't work so well after all
I took a walk down memory lane last night for a few hours. This after telling a friend about what happened with her, which isn't something I had really thought about, in full, in quite awhile I went back and re-read entries here and elsewhere about it all. It's not that I had forgotten how great things were for a while there. It was just hard to remember how truly happy I was. Not just because of her but because everything was just good. And right. With a lot of people. I really miss that. Yeah, I know. Things change... yadda, yadda, yadda. I only wonder if things will ever be that good again. I'd like to believe that things will be, but it's hard for me to have that faith. If I could I'd just live in March 29th of last year forever... that or the last Thursday of finals week last spring.
At this point that's all I can really say I want.
I realize that is not a good thing.
I just don't even know what else to want anymore. I don't feel like I have anything in my sights... nothing that I really wanna reach for that would truly make me happy.
So what do I do now?
At this point that's all I can really say I want.
I realize that is not a good thing.
I just don't even know what else to want anymore. I don't feel like I have anything in my sights... nothing that I really wanna reach for that would truly make me happy.
So what do I do now?