Ah la la la la la la life is wonderful...
Every time I go outside, I think how beautiful it is and how much I love fall. It got to about 60 degrees today and it was too warm for my liking.
And then every time I go inside again to my dorm, I think how incredibly lucky I've been that I really haven't had to work very hard at all to meet people whom I really like, care about, and trust.
I look around to people I know here, people I consider my friends, people who aren't happy here. It makes me sad. I wish there was something I could do. There's one person I'm really concerned about, but at the same time I just don't understand holding onto ideas that make you miserable and then not feeling you want to change it or have the power to. I'm thinking about asking my Intro to Psych Services professor about it. I really like her, and she has a lot of experience and expertise. When she talks, I just want to listen, even though she doesn't have an especially loud, commanding voice. I feel like I could connect with her and just talk with her.
Despite the people who are struggling, I can easily surround myself with others who genuinely make me happy, so I'm going to focus on that right now. I've been thinking about the fact that I'm so excited to see everyone in December, but at the same time, I'm going to miss my floormates a lot. It's very much like MSS, especially around December and tour, where you spend such an intense amount of time together that even a weekend feels like a huge block of time apart, and you miss everyone a ton when you don't see them until halfway through winter break. But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
All my love and the very best to everyone,
Rachel
And then every time I go inside again to my dorm, I think how incredibly lucky I've been that I really haven't had to work very hard at all to meet people whom I really like, care about, and trust.
I look around to people I know here, people I consider my friends, people who aren't happy here. It makes me sad. I wish there was something I could do. There's one person I'm really concerned about, but at the same time I just don't understand holding onto ideas that make you miserable and then not feeling you want to change it or have the power to. I'm thinking about asking my Intro to Psych Services professor about it. I really like her, and she has a lot of experience and expertise. When she talks, I just want to listen, even though she doesn't have an especially loud, commanding voice. I feel like I could connect with her and just talk with her.
Despite the people who are struggling, I can easily surround myself with others who genuinely make me happy, so I'm going to focus on that right now. I've been thinking about the fact that I'm so excited to see everyone in December, but at the same time, I'm going to miss my floormates a lot. It's very much like MSS, especially around December and tour, where you spend such an intense amount of time together that even a weekend feels like a huge block of time apart, and you miss everyone a ton when you don't see them until halfway through winter break. But we'll cross that bridge when we come to it.
All my love and the very best to everyone,
Rachel