i got a heart full of pain,a head full of stress,handful of anger held in my chest
Crawling in my skin
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I’m convinced
that it’s too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure
I find myself here again.Realising ive not learned from my past mistakes.You think i would know better.You think i wouldnt be so stupid so pathetic.It hurts when you find out the truth.But then again i knew the truth all along.It was me and it was my fault.I was the only one who could have stopped it but i didnt.Im not strong enough.I deserve everything thats happened.Maybe now ill learn not to push.I should just hide in a corner and let the world pass me by never noticing im there.Never noticing if im alive or dead.It doesnt matter anymore cos i cant feel anything.Im empty of emotion.I dont deserve what ive got.But it shouldnt take long until he realises.Then the fun can really begin.
These wounds, they will not heal
Fear is how I fall
Confusing what is real
There’s something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming confusing
This lack of self control I fear is never ending
Controlling I can’t seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
Without a sense of confidence and I’m convinced
that it’s too much pressure to take
I’ve felt this way before
So insecure
I find myself here again.Realising ive not learned from my past mistakes.You think i would know better.You think i wouldnt be so stupid so pathetic.It hurts when you find out the truth.But then again i knew the truth all along.It was me and it was my fault.I was the only one who could have stopped it but i didnt.Im not strong enough.I deserve everything thats happened.Maybe now ill learn not to push.I should just hide in a corner and let the world pass me by never noticing im there.Never noticing if im alive or dead.It doesnt matter anymore cos i cant feel anything.Im empty of emotion.I dont deserve what ive got.But it shouldnt take long until he realises.Then the fun can really begin.