So much has happened...
Oh wow... so it feels like it's been a million years since my last entry. Master Kilronis came back home on Thursday night... but i still haven't seen Him. Thursday night Mike and i had a HUGE blowup. Around 10:30 we were talking in bed and got a phone call from a guy threatening to "get back" at Mike for some things he had said about him on a message board. The guy tracked down our number somehow... it wasn't given to him and Mike totally freaked out. He lost it... went totally balistic going on and on about how i needed to leave him alone because he needed to calm down. i gave him almost 20 minutes before i went in to talk to him and he blew up at me again. i attempted to do what he asked which was give him suggestions about what to do but he wasn't satisfied with any of the advise i had supplied so he became even more angry. i finally told him that i would need to leave (i was staying the night to get the EDD phone call in the morning) and he flipped out. The entire time i remained so calm... i have no idea how since he was screaming at me but, i didn't get angry.
Anyways, i gave him several opportunites to settle down but he told me that he "couldn't" calm down and so i again stated that i would be leaving. He followed me outside in his underwear proceeding to tell me that if i left i would "be sorry". When i got into the garage i could hear him hitting and throwing things. After that he proceeded to call me numerous times and leave me threatening voice mails telling me that if i didn't call him back he would divorce me, etc. In the morning mom and i went over there and he had cracked our solid wood door with his fist the night before.
i haven't really spoken with him since. i left for the weekend and had 1 very short phone conversation with him tonight just to let him know i was heading home. He wanted to talk to me but i told him it was not the time. i dno't know what i'm going to do. Part of me feels that it's hopeless. i'm scared of what he may do if anything serious were to ever happen. This wasn't that big of a deal.. but he made it one.
The EDD call went well... Had a lil scare when the interviewer said that they couldn't conduct the interview until after class started... but, she called me back and said they would make an exception since the holiday would prevent me from getting another appointment until it was too late. i'm hoping to hear something this week so that i can get really excited about starting school. :)
The weekend with my friends was good. Had a fun time, met some new people... but mostly got away from my husband and mother. It was nice to be able to have some time just to spend relaxing and being myself without worrying about being judged. I am very relaxed now and should be getting to bed.
i still haven't heard from Master... crossing fingers and hoping today will be the day... *blows soft kisses*
Anyways, i gave him several opportunites to settle down but he told me that he "couldn't" calm down and so i again stated that i would be leaving. He followed me outside in his underwear proceeding to tell me that if i left i would "be sorry". When i got into the garage i could hear him hitting and throwing things. After that he proceeded to call me numerous times and leave me threatening voice mails telling me that if i didn't call him back he would divorce me, etc. In the morning mom and i went over there and he had cracked our solid wood door with his fist the night before.
i haven't really spoken with him since. i left for the weekend and had 1 very short phone conversation with him tonight just to let him know i was heading home. He wanted to talk to me but i told him it was not the time. i dno't know what i'm going to do. Part of me feels that it's hopeless. i'm scared of what he may do if anything serious were to ever happen. This wasn't that big of a deal.. but he made it one.
The EDD call went well... Had a lil scare when the interviewer said that they couldn't conduct the interview until after class started... but, she called me back and said they would make an exception since the holiday would prevent me from getting another appointment until it was too late. i'm hoping to hear something this week so that i can get really excited about starting school. :)
The weekend with my friends was good. Had a fun time, met some new people... but mostly got away from my husband and mother. It was nice to be able to have some time just to spend relaxing and being myself without worrying about being judged. I am very relaxed now and should be getting to bed.
i still haven't heard from Master... crossing fingers and hoping today will be the day... *blows soft kisses*