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i believe in everything being 50/50. right now i feel so empty. im not myself anymore. it could be this over working from school but i dont think thats the case. things dont seem like the way they were. when i was happy. everything is completly different. i miss everything. every detail. you can't depend on anyone for happiness. i dont anymore. since i met her i havent. i told myself i would never fall in love again. i told myself i would be alone n be fine with it. you came along n changed everything. and now its chanegd again. theres no routine. im starting to think im the problem. people keep running from me. no one is ever "ready". of all the people ever hurt in the world, i should be the one scared of love the most... through all the bad shit, im the one most open to it. new beginnings ever single day....some people are just the type to not be alone, and others are. i can't be alone. i think entirely too much. why do you distance yourself from me? what are you afraid of? no matter what you say, i know how u really feel. i do. and thats why it fuckin kills me.
i need to blur this shit n make it not so visible anymore. joses for the weekend.