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How can you attain happiness if you don't accept it into your life? sometime i dont think people actually want it. i try my best to help others feel good, cuz then i feel good. but lately i dont feel like ive been doin my job correctly. lately ive been feelin kinda down n im not sure why. i feel like sumthin bad is gunna hapen. im usually wrong at these feelings. but still i just dont know. i been thinkin aot about myself, yoyo, college n just us in general. its actualy hittin me that im goin to college this september. yoyo's lease wil be up in august and i dont kno where shes gunna go from there. sometimes i tryed to talk to her about it n she just replied "i duno". its really scary. i kno im going to meet alota ppl. i am now. but at the same time, its not like im lookin to meet someone new to take the place of her. its scary cuz these feelings r so real... i dunno. this is a different feeling. she means so much to me. i cnat imagine my life without her. we talked today and i expressed some things that were on my mind n i feel better now. shes a smart girl n she doesnt sugar coat things. I "L" word is starting to come into my head. i dunno if i wanna talk about that just yet. im showering now.