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Well.. today i got up not in the best mood because last night i was somewhat upset. But now i think I feel alot better.. see yesterday I dumped brandon.. I had been mad at him and now i wish i would have talked to him first.. well after i did it i called him up last night.. b/c i wasnt sure if i really wanted to break it off.. but we both agree that itd be easier and that we would both be happier to find someone else that lives near us. I was bummed.. b/c i think more then him i actually just liked the feeling of knowing someone was thinking about me and cared about me. But this morning when i was gettin ready for registration i realized that if i dont care bout someone like they care about me its not fair to them. Well I guess its back to being single for a little while.. hopefully I'll find someone. But untill then I'm going to make being single worth it. [party.. lol jk] But i definitely had a good summer.. even with everything thats happened. I dont regret a single thing in my life anymore and if i could go back and change it.. i wouldnt.. b/c from everything bad.. i didnt always get something good.. but i learned something new. Just b/c u think someone would be right for you.. doesnt mean you are right for them... just b/c people tell you someone is good for you doesnt mean you should listen, it should be what you feel is good for you.... just because you care about someone doesnt mean theyll care about you back... try your hardest for what you want or later youll be wondering if you had just done it different would it have worked... everything happeneds for a reason... even if out of it you get your heartbroken... maybe once.. or maybe twice. Last night I was saying to myself that out of everything thats happened I was the one that ended up with nothing.. well i changed my mind.. i think i ended up with soo much more.. I now have courage and confidence.. I have bettered myself and i think thats more then any guy,friend,bf,hook up, party... could ever give me. I still somewhat wish things would have turned out differently.. but things happen and people move on; some slower then others. What I had hoped for didnt happen but its not as bad as it could be.. I have the best friend in the world.. and she is so great and always there for me. I had an awesome boyfriend this summer (yes even though we broke up hes still awesome..and we're still friends) I also met some awesome people this summer. They taught me some awesome things.. one of thems going off to college this year.. and I'm definitely going to miss him but I'm sure he'll be around often. And the other person I met..hes great.. we had the longest talking record i have ever had.. yes me and him talked longer then me and kat ever have. I learned soo much from him. I had such a great time hangin out with them this summer that it almost seems like the rest is a blur. And this is one damn long entry. So I prolly should just stop it at that... alrite well I hope you guys had just as an awesome summer as I did.. because mine was absolutely awesome!

I in a way can't wait for school to start back and to see everyone.