God, i Love friends.
Sunday brunch with nomes, and tonight i hit an 8 oclock showing of SAW III. and it was much much more interesting than i ever thought. freaky at times, over gross at others. amazingly thoughtful. well done. it always is. i love that series.
meanwhile, Nuclear Reprisal, my movie buff/politico friend, was with me and we had a good long walk around the mall afterwards. turns out i needed to vent and he had ideas. a great combo. we chatted about comics and creativity and potential and what he wanted to do, and what i wanted to do, and what we could get our friends into, and all of this takes time, but it was so amazing to hear the ideas start pouring out. i even let loose with a "rehearsed" joke, and damn it went well.
(side note, i'm on a stint of making jokes from the news in a "daily show" esk manner. it has to do with me working on "rehearsed improv," essentially standup comedy / practiced stuff. the reasons behind this are currently pipe dreams. tt me later if you wanna know)
this after a fabulous sunday with nomes talking about many similar things (pipe dreams included) as well as the future and many many possibilities. It turns out i like ideas and i like my friends even more. i miss them.
On another note,
Yesterday i walked into work convinced i would quit. I still want to. last night i crashed at Chez Parents, and they mentioned a certain other person feeling this way and the steps that they were thinking of taking. today certain people and i chatted and left me feeling that part of my responsibility regardless of my continueing employment is to inform the people that need to know just what my concerns are. i also found out that now is a good time to negotiate.
and negotiations are what i hate and love. the promise they bring is great, yet the deal's not always so great.
I still want to look into other options, yet i also learned today that my boss is again away from the office, back to northern BC to look after a car crash that involved his son's van and employee(what he needs to be there for i don't know. but i don't ask questions either). So i can't even give my notice. or at least i can, but the only people that it would effect right now are my co-workers, my peers of several years, and there would be no-one to offer any solutions to these people that i care about. no need to freak out people yet.
If however, there's some negotiating to happen.. well i don't know what it would take to convinve me away from my course at this point. there is no short term answer to the current problems in my office (and yes, it is an office problem at this point. not just a me problem). My real problem, the one i don't share with my coworkers is that i can't go on like this, a solution needs to be found now. in the meantime, my solution is to start booking days off where i can so i can at least handle myself until the world ends. It means our office might just have to rely on the as-of-yet unreliable and absent. risky. but he's going to have to commit at some point. it might as well be now.
anyways. maybe i'll mention pipe dreams later. but then you migt ask me about them, and then maybe i might feel obligated. As nomes knows, thats the best way for not fun.
-Val
PPS. i had a Great time at Max;s on sunday. thankyou for the candles, the horror (show), and of course, fabulous company. i look forward to more, guys. (i just wish i was more "present" if ya know what i mean). Thankyou most to Darrel. your words regarding my paperwork at Council were most appreciated. somehow darrel, that reminded me of my first impression of you at dance. Inviting.
and i needed it.
meanwhile, Nuclear Reprisal, my movie buff/politico friend, was with me and we had a good long walk around the mall afterwards. turns out i needed to vent and he had ideas. a great combo. we chatted about comics and creativity and potential and what he wanted to do, and what i wanted to do, and what we could get our friends into, and all of this takes time, but it was so amazing to hear the ideas start pouring out. i even let loose with a "rehearsed" joke, and damn it went well.
(side note, i'm on a stint of making jokes from the news in a "daily show" esk manner. it has to do with me working on "rehearsed improv," essentially standup comedy / practiced stuff. the reasons behind this are currently pipe dreams. tt me later if you wanna know)
this after a fabulous sunday with nomes talking about many similar things (pipe dreams included) as well as the future and many many possibilities. It turns out i like ideas and i like my friends even more. i miss them.
On another note,
Yesterday i walked into work convinced i would quit. I still want to. last night i crashed at Chez Parents, and they mentioned a certain other person feeling this way and the steps that they were thinking of taking. today certain people and i chatted and left me feeling that part of my responsibility regardless of my continueing employment is to inform the people that need to know just what my concerns are. i also found out that now is a good time to negotiate.
and negotiations are what i hate and love. the promise they bring is great, yet the deal's not always so great.
I still want to look into other options, yet i also learned today that my boss is again away from the office, back to northern BC to look after a car crash that involved his son's van and employee(what he needs to be there for i don't know. but i don't ask questions either). So i can't even give my notice. or at least i can, but the only people that it would effect right now are my co-workers, my peers of several years, and there would be no-one to offer any solutions to these people that i care about. no need to freak out people yet.
If however, there's some negotiating to happen.. well i don't know what it would take to convinve me away from my course at this point. there is no short term answer to the current problems in my office (and yes, it is an office problem at this point. not just a me problem). My real problem, the one i don't share with my coworkers is that i can't go on like this, a solution needs to be found now. in the meantime, my solution is to start booking days off where i can so i can at least handle myself until the world ends. It means our office might just have to rely on the as-of-yet unreliable and absent. risky. but he's going to have to commit at some point. it might as well be now.
anyways. maybe i'll mention pipe dreams later. but then you migt ask me about them, and then maybe i might feel obligated. As nomes knows, thats the best way for not fun.
-Val
PPS. i had a Great time at Max;s on sunday. thankyou for the candles, the horror (show), and of course, fabulous company. i look forward to more, guys. (i just wish i was more "present" if ya know what i mean). Thankyou most to Darrel. your words regarding my paperwork at Council were most appreciated. somehow darrel, that reminded me of my first impression of you at dance. Inviting.
and i needed it.