I want to remember all of this
I've got to write it all down so I don't forget. because I don't want to forget.
I want to remember when you get up before me and get ready for class. and then come back to set the alarm for me, and the way you look when you're sitting on the edge of your bed. and I stretch and yawn, and you put your books down. because today you'd rather stay and sleep with me all morning.
and we stayed up laughing until 2 am.
I want to remember that you drove with me when I was crying. that you listened. and you took me to the airport, because that's where you'd want to be if you were upset. and then we got a milkshake, because that's where I want to be when I'm upset.
and how you remember my list for me when we go to the store. because I just get so damned confused and distracted.
I want to remember the night I held you and you cried because of something that you hadn't had a chance to get out.
and I want to remember how pissed off I get because you refuse to tuck in your sheets at the bottom of your bed. and how you wait until you think I'm asleep to reach your feet over and untuck the sheets on my side.
I want to remember that I'm okay with you leaving. because I knew it all along. That I can shop for conditioner on my own. and that I can sleep without you next to me. and that I'll be just fine without your smell or your sweatpants. without your stupid united airlines hat. I know I will be, but at least now I know I won't forget.
I want to remember when you get up before me and get ready for class. and then come back to set the alarm for me, and the way you look when you're sitting on the edge of your bed. and I stretch and yawn, and you put your books down. because today you'd rather stay and sleep with me all morning.
and we stayed up laughing until 2 am.
I want to remember that you drove with me when I was crying. that you listened. and you took me to the airport, because that's where you'd want to be if you were upset. and then we got a milkshake, because that's where I want to be when I'm upset.
and how you remember my list for me when we go to the store. because I just get so damned confused and distracted.
I want to remember the night I held you and you cried because of something that you hadn't had a chance to get out.
and I want to remember how pissed off I get because you refuse to tuck in your sheets at the bottom of your bed. and how you wait until you think I'm asleep to reach your feet over and untuck the sheets on my side.
I want to remember that I'm okay with you leaving. because I knew it all along. That I can shop for conditioner on my own. and that I can sleep without you next to me. and that I'll be just fine without your smell or your sweatpants. without your stupid united airlines hat. I know I will be, but at least now I know I won't forget.